Heard Her Voice, But Wasn't There...

[Muted]

Has anyone felt like there weren't 'there' for their session? It's like I could hear her voice, but nothing made sense and I don't remember anything she said...

 

[Friday]

Disassociating? Yah, sure, youbetcha.

 

[Muted]

Usually, it feels different when I disassociate I usually just go numb, but I still hear quite clearly. This was kind of different I didn't feel like myself and nothing made sense.

 

[Panda Bear]

Indeed....for me disassociation is a sliding scale. At the extreme end, words begin to sound like the teacher in Charlie Brown. T will find my saying over and over again "I don't understand"

It sucks and I hate it.

 

[Muted]

I hate it too!! Talk about feeling no control...

 

[MisterCatLady]

Omg I've done that twice in therapy! Both times I was having a panic attack but I didn't understand a word she was saying.

 

[Muted]

Ya, I remember telling myself to try and remember what she was saying so I could understand later, but I can't!! It is so freaky!

 

[sun seeker]

I believe it's depersonalization, and yes, it's happened to me. Super frustrating because my therapist doesn't pick up on it and I have to keep saying I'm not really "there."

 

[Friday]

I have my own personal spectrum of disassociation. And, cha. When some new aspect gets added (or noticed)? :eek: Aieeeeeeee. WTF was that? Really, Brain, were we just bored with our current level of f*cked uppedness, we had to go and add another???

A lot of the time, I've come to find, the "new" thing is either not new (I just haven't been as self aware, before), or actually something of a bridge between where I was, and where I want to be. So it tends to be the opposite, really. Instead of being more f*cked up, I'm actually transitioning towards getting better. Either wY, though, it tends to throw me, a bit.

 

[hodge]

I am so there with all you guys. My T is so incredibly full of info I've been thinking about asking her if I can record our sessions, because there's no way I can keep up, even if I take a notebook and fully intend on taking notes, cause guess I'm not very good at taking notes anymore.

 

[Ronin]

I take it when I'm not there, but still recall something important was said?

I was paying attention to it on some other level. That's a good thing. That just means I got to connect it with other helpful things and give myself time.

So yah. Spacing out is my middle name. NotHere is the first.

 

[Muted]

Good point, I hadn't thought about it like that... that on some level I heard her, but just can't access it now.