Sufferer Hello! Childhood Trauma, Abusive Marriage, Single Parent To Two Lovely Boys.

[beckyblue10]

My name is Becky, I am 44 years old. I am a single parent to two lovely boys. I was diagnosed with PTSD after a death of a good friend. This then triggered childhood trauma to emerge from the depths. After a lot of therapy I believe I have CPTSD from a narcissistic parents and family environment. I left an abusive marriage 4 years ago and now understand the cycle of abuse which I have now broken for my kids. I have put up strict boundaries with my family. I feel proud and brave, but also completely broken, very lonely and in desperate need of a community and people that understand. I have a great friend family but it's really difficult to explain this stuff. I am now trying to live my life as who I am with no shame or guilt. But I know what takes a lot of work.

 

[Riley Jones]

My name is Becky, I am 44 years old. I am a single parent to two lovely boys. I was diagnosed with PTSD after a death of a good friend. This then triggered childhood trauma to emerge from the depths. After a lot of therapy I believe I have CPTSD from a narcissistic parents and family environment. I left an abusive marriage 4 years ago and now understand the cycle of abuse which I have now broken for my kids. I have put up strict boundaries with my family. I feel proud and brave, but also completely broken, very lonely and in desperate need of a community and people that understand. I have a great friend family but it's really difficult to explain this stuff. I am now trying to live my life as who I am with no shame or guilt. But I know what takes a lot of work.

Becky, thank you for sharing your story with us. It takes a tremendous amount of courage to navigate through the complexities of PTSD and CPTSD, especially when dealing with childhood trauma and abusive relationships. I want to commend you for recognizing the cycle of abuse and taking steps to break it for yourself and your children. Setting boundaries with family can be challenging but is crucial for your healing and well-being.

It's completely normal to feel proud of your progress while also experiencing feelings of brokenness, loneliness, and the need for understanding and support. You are not alone in this journey. There are many individuals within the myptsd.com community who can relate to what you're going through and offer empathy, guidance, and companionship.

By sharing your experiences and connecting with others who understand, you can find a sense of validation and belonging that is essential for healing. Remember, it's okay to not be okay, and seeking support and community is a strong step towards healing and self-acceptance.

I encourage you to explore the forums on myptsd.com where you can find specific topics related to PTSD and CPTSD that may resonate with your experiences. Whether you need a listening ear, advice, or simply a space to express yourself, know that there are people here who understand and care. Please continue prioritizing your well-being and reaching out for the support you deserve.

 

[Sideways]

Welcome to the forum!

Getting on top of my shame has been one of the hardest parts of my own recovery. I hope this place helps you achieve that:)

 

[Friday]

I feel proud and brave, but also completely broken, very lonely and in desperate need of a community and people that understand. I have a great friend family but it's really difficult to explain this stuff. I am now trying to live my life as who I am with no shame or guilt. But I know what takes a lot of work.

Well said. Very well said.

My faaaaaavorite / so darn useful link >>> The ptsd cup explanation

Welcome!

 

[beckyblue10]

Thank you I will check that out for sure x

Welcome to the forum!

Getting on top of my shame has been one of the hardest parts of my own recovery. I hope this place helps you achieve that:)

Thank you, so nice to hear others understand x

 

[hypervigilant]

Hiya and welcome.
Firstly you've come a long way and breaking the cycle is admirable.
I too had a narcissistic parent (mother) and was already pre programmed for my abusive first husband. I left him after 10 years with my two beautiful boys. Nearly 30 years on I have a loving, supportive hubby and my boys have grown into amazing men and a beautiful, clever, supportive daughter. I too broke the cycle and became a great mother, wife, despite my upbringing. I just keep moving forward.
I hope you find the support and resonance here among us other warriors.

 

[beckyblue10]

Hiya and welcome.
Firstly you've come a long way and breaking the cycle is admirable.
I too had a narcissistic parent (mother) and was already pre programmed for my abusive first husband. I left him after 10 years with my two beautiful boys. Nearly 30 years on I have a loving, supportive hubby and my boys have grown into amazing men and a beautiful, clever, supportive daughter. I too broke the cycle and became a great mother, wife, despite my upbringing. I just keep moving forward.
I hope you find the support and resonance here among us other warriors.

Thank you so much, it's hard for us to feel like we are not always wrong, but I do feel like I have some calm now I fully understand what happened to me and how it effected my life. Coming out of the storm is definitely a way to describe it.

I am so pleased to hear you have experienced a loving relationship and family. It gives me lots of hope for the future xxx