Hello Friends!

[Freddy_hiding_less]

Though I'm not yet sure that I belong in here by diagnose, I don't have any.

My situation contains emotional flashes with flight impulses or something like freeze responses. Specially in intimate or potentially intimate situations with people dear to me. So intimate connections have seldom occured and never lasted.

At this time in life I'm stuck in avoidance.

I trace this back to an always very sick mother that died when I was 10 and a depressed noncommunicative/introvert asthmatic, allthough on that level very reliable father.

I also must say I'm very touched by many of the reports from Your lifes and the sincere support that is given here.

 

[txmomof3]

Welcome to the forum. Being stuck in avoidance can be a way of your brain protecting you. The "non-feeling" that comes with it makes life difficult...but I have to believe that eventually the avoidance will decrease. I know that when that time finally comes, the ability to feel the good feelings will outweigh having to sort through the bad ones.

 

[Freddy_hiding_less]

txmomof3: Thanks! Sure i'ts about protection and the non-feeling i very safe at the moment. Theres is good people around me though i live alone and make very few moves. Connecting beyond very fixed patterns floods we, and the hardest one to cope with is that people I like trigger a longing for kind of symbiotic meelting, distortes reality, and makes communication impossible. It's a all or nothing thing. So I stay on a very long distance to make me able to still think. The sad thing is that not much learning can happen this way.

 

[hollyberry]

welcome to the forum

 

[vst]

Hi Freddy and welcome,

vst

 

[mouse]

Welcome Freddy