Sufferer Hello From Australia.

[Xentrix667]

Hello. I note there are a few other Aussies here. I'll keep my side of things short. I'm 34 years old and have been a sufferer of depression, anxiety and panic attacks since I was a child. I've been on numerous meds and find that each day I am getting worse.
It's only recently that I've started to really confront some of the root causes of my troubles.
When I was 12 I was abused by a guy on the road I lived in at the time. It happened more than once. Since then I have pushed that away to the deepest parts of my mind "forgetting" about it or pretending it never existed.
I saw a psychiatrist when I was 19 and it came up then and I got frightened and felt sick talking about it so I pushed it away and stopped seeing the psych.
I'm now married and only recently confided in my wife that this happened to me. She has suggested I see someone to talk about it.
So I have an appointment with a psych coming up this Tuesday.
I am hoping it goes well. I am more scared than I've ever been.
I've been researching ptsd (my wife suggested it) and that's how I came to this website. I had never thought of it before but she did a lot of research and thought that it might be the case that I've got it and it's getting worse.
Anyways, sorry to bore you as I know there are many like me and possibly worse, but I've really been feeling trapped and like a time bomb lately.

 

[ladee]

Welcome @Xentrix667, glad you found us. Sounds as if you are on the right track to finding out what is going on and getting into therapy is the best way to go. We tried so hard to just forget. But it always comes back. You are safe here and hope you keep us updated on your situation.. Hope your T is great and you can get to work on healing. It is ok to be scared. It is very frightening to open up to someone about our past..
Also hope you use the forum to ask questions, read the threads and articles. This is a vast place of helpful information and people willing to support and understand. Glad you are here ! Sending gentle welcome hugs if you accept.

 

[EveHarrington]

Welcome to the forum! :)

I think it's good that you're being proactive and researching PTSD. (But I hope you don't actually have PTSD as I wouldn't wish this disorder on my worst enemy!)

Even if the psych doesn't think it's PTSD, that doesn't mean you aren't suffering-----there are a number of effective treatments for recovering from trauma. And, PTSD is just one disorder caused by trauma, so you may actually have a different ailment.

Please don't misunderstand-----I'm not trying to dissuade you from this PTSD thing-----rather, I want to say that no matter what the psych says during your appointment, healing is a very real possibility. And IMHO something you very much deserve.

Oh, and this is an Aussie based site! The owner/founder is Australian.

 

[Killashandra]

Hello fellow aussie.

I hope you find this forum helpful and supportive, I sure have. Welcome

I hope all goes well with the psych, if this is your first time don't be discouraged if you don't hit it off. It's a very personal thing therapy, and it may take some time to find some one your comfortable with.

Take care and research... education on your condition whatever it may be will help the process of recovery.

Killa

 

[Xentrix667]

Thanks to you both. Great reception.
Yeah I have no idea what it might be that I have. I've been treated for anxiety and depression with no real impact. My social anxiety has increased and my panic attacks have been increasing. Will have a look around the other posts and ask questions if I need to.
I love the warm welcome I've received. Thanks.

 

[Xentrix667]

D'oh. I didn't realise this was an Aussie site. Cool.
I do need healing because whatever I'm going through is awful :(

 

[intothelight]

@Xentrix667 Welcome to the forum!

 

[Deleted member 28403]

Welcome to the forums :hug: I hope this place helps you. It's very useful because of the bulk amount of people who feel similar and understand. There is a lot of advice and support to be found here :) I hope that this amazing community helps you as much as it helped me, reading all the similar stories, and learning a lot along the way. Hugs if you accept :hug: