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[MyNameIs86]

Hello,

I'm new to this forum.
I have been diagnosed with PTSD from my therapist and a medical DR.
This upcoming 9-11 will be the 3rd anniversary of the incident I had in college. Things have changed... I have changed.

Three years ago (2007) I went away for college for the first time, living with a roommate.
This roommate harrased me on a daily schedule. On 9-11-2007, while I was waiting to hear back
from school officials about this "problem" I was having with the roommate, the roommate and I
had a verbal arguement, where the only bad thing I did was curse. (Which I rarely do).
3 hours go by, worrying I'd get into trouble because I cursed at her (F word 1 time), I decided
to go check my mail....This is where I was arrested because the roommate had decided to lie
and tell school officials and police that I came after her with a pair of scissors... I was arrested
for 12 hours 3pm on 9-11 to 3am on 9-12.

Now 3 years later we are in the mist of a lawsuit and I just feel depressed with anxiety.
I have no friends, no bf, nobody except my parents (and family).
I am scared that my life won't be the same, and I keep thinking my parents will pass away
leaving me all alone, jobless/friendless having nobody. I just feel like I'm going to be alone
the rest of my life.

Can somebody help me?
Is this part of PTSD?

 

[gemini56001]

omg I feel the same way and I am also new to this forum this is the first post I could even make...just finally have access...i also have ptsd it is living a living hell...its so hard to deal with nobody understands...my husband and I are having some really bad problems right now because of this...i am going to share my story also maybe somebody can relate....all of my friends that haven't had to deal with any real problems in their life pretty much think that I am crazy and yeah.....ptsd has ruined my life and my relationships with everyone!

 

[Deleted member 1859]

I think this is all a reaction to something overwhelmingly real that shouldnt be. My daughter had a room mate and he ticked all the boxes for a perpertator of domestic violence . Even when her father and I said "your outta here" and got her out. He tried to stalk her.
Is there evidence, how can this happen?

 

[MyNameIs86]

Well... this roommate has several different versions of her story since it has changed so much.

I can't really go into details cuz of the lawsuit.

 

[MyNameIs86]

Some Days Are Just Blah

Dear PTSDForum Members,

Since I came home I feel useless. I feel like I will never be able to live alone. I depend on my parents a whole lot because I don't trust anybody any more. I don't have any friends nearby to hang out with. I do have a few internet friends and pen pals I write to through the mail, but nobody to laugh with, nobody to hang out with. It totally sucks and nobody here at home really understands what I am going through.

I feel like all the bad stuff is happening to me, all the time. Since the incident, I feel more alone then any time before.

I need some help. Can anybody help me?

 

[James B.]

Not much help here, but I can really relate to being afraid to trust people. For me, some relief has come from "patching" and I am about to begin learning EFT. Some days really are "just...blah" and the best thing for me so far is to journal it out here, get some support and, basically get through it. Good luck and best wishes.

 

[anni]

Can you look for support groups for people your age? If you live in an area where there's access to these things, something could be listed on the internet, or you could call the local churches-they tend to have listings of these groups. It wouldn't have to be a PTSD group if you couldn't find one, maybe an anxiety disorder group if that would be more common? If you're still seeing a therapist, perhaps he.she can get you involved somewhere.

It must be hard to be young and alone at home with all your friends off at school. Are there any community colleges nearby, where maybe you can take a socially-connected class which will be non-threatening to you, like an art class or something? They tend to be interactive a little without being too demanding on the course load in the basic courses.

I hope you feel a little better day by day-it all sounds terrible, and must be worse not being able to talk about.

Take care,

Anni