Just wanted to say hello, I'm a 2 time vet with the air national guard 05 OIF 10 OIF and beginning of new dawn, in 05 I took shrapnel to my forearm from a RPG at taji Iraq and I played it off for so long and pushed it to the back of my mind for years. But after the 10 deployment I came home and I've been on a downward spiral. I had my VA appointments and I am receiving benefits, but I feel I have been under diagnosed (lol I think that's right) as they said I just have anxiety not PTSD. I'm married with two kids who I love more than anything but its been brought to my attention that I take everything out on them and I'm withdrawn, like I'm here but not, if that makes sense. I was on anti-depressants and felt great but then my unit found out, and was told to get off them or get kicked out, and now I'm back to being pissed off and don't care about anything really but my wife and kids but again I take it out on them, and I think I'm going to lose them. I've been told to seek therapy but I'm having a hard time wanting/willing to go because I don't want someone on the other side of the table to judge me and who has no idea what we've been through. I found this site today and thought I would see what others have tried. Please any advice would help. Do I go back on the meds and throw away 12 yrs of service or do I stay off and try to figure this out some other way. Thanks
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Welcome Josh.
Whatever you do, don't go off your meds. It's ok to change them once you know a bit more. In the end it's your choice mate. Can you function as part of a team or would you put them in jeopardy.
Go talk to your CO and see if you can get a leave of absence to sort this shit out. You never know, you might be one of the lucky ones and only have an anxiety disorder. They can be wrong mate and you want to hope they are actually right.
When was your last deployment?? You see in the DSM IV, the great psych bible, it's only days that determine whether it's a depressive episode, and anxiety disorder or PTSD.
In the mean time, read all the articles here, they might ring a few bells.
Do all this for your family's sake mate, and yours.
Jimmy
Whatever you do, don't go off your meds. It's ok to change them once you know a bit more. In the end it's your choice mate. Can you function as part of a team or would you put them in jeopardy.
Go talk to your CO and see if you can get a leave of absence to sort this shit out. You never know, you might be one of the lucky ones and only have an anxiety disorder. They can be wrong mate and you want to hope they are actually right.
When was your last deployment?? You see in the DSM IV, the great psych bible, it's only days that determine whether it's a depressive episode, and anxiety disorder or PTSD.
In the mean time, read all the articles here, they might ring a few bells.
Do all this for your family's sake mate, and yours.
Jimmy
Hey Josh
Welcome to the forums.
I'm sorry to hear of your problems, they're not uncommon among us. What I would say is also what Jimmy said, stay on your meds. It's very important at this point in time. No matter what happens with the time you've served, your wife and family is forever. Hard as it may sound, take care of yourself and what will best serve your family. You've already more than served your country. What ever happens, no one can take that away from you. Also, try to see if you can get another opinion about your condition. Stay the course and don't give up.
JarHed
Welcome to the forums.
I'm sorry to hear of your problems, they're not uncommon among us. What I would say is also what Jimmy said, stay on your meds. It's very important at this point in time. No matter what happens with the time you've served, your wife and family is forever. Hard as it may sound, take care of yourself and what will best serve your family. You've already more than served your country. What ever happens, no one can take that away from you. Also, try to see if you can get another opinion about your condition. Stay the course and don't give up.
JarHed
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Ah...The dreaded 50/50 decision. Lose the military or lose the family. you just have to think about what is more important to you. trying to cope without the meds is a very hard thing to do. i hope that whatever decision you make makes you happy. I also was stationed in camp Taji, 223rd maint. co. grand prarie tx. oif 3
Tim Cake
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Thanks for keeping my tracks and wheels rolling!
Tim Cake
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Follow Sarg's advice. ** BE SAFE ** Only change your meds under the supervision of your Medical Doctor.
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