Hello!

[Sasa]

Hi, I am new here and am very happy to find a place where I can read about and discuss issues with other survivors. I have already gained much comfort from reading about other people who have the exact same difficulties as I do. Thanks for the great forum.:smile:

 

[intothelight]

Hi Sassa,

Welcome to the forum. It is a wonderful place to find information and share it.

ITL

 

[Zennah]

I am new, too, as of 5 minutes ago. I might have signed up too soon, as I will be having surgery on my left wrist and base thumb joint soon, so typing is difficult. I'm not sure where the new member area is, so if anyone reads this and can direct me, that'd be great. Perhaps I'm just a bit tired tonight, as we finally got our heat today here in the Bay Area near San Francisco.''

I look forward to reading more from others, as I'm just learning more about having Complex PTSD. Have finally found the "right" trauma specialist. A long time overdue!

 

[sassyfras]

Hey, nice to meet you! I'm new too and just getting used to the site, it's been therapeutic so far just to know I'm not alone...theres lots of rules, but they all seem pretty fair and not too hard to follow. We can all get through this together!

 

[Zennah]

Yeah, it is a bit tricky to navigate, but like I said on my intro, I'm glad the rules exist because I'm an aspiring author who's still afraid to actually try to write the great book. Hahaha! I just truly feel that until I have the healing taking place at a deep, cellular level, that my ending is never gonna get written, and the story will kind of stop mid-air...which is how I feel most days. I'll have good days, good hours within a day, but if I stop for too long, I just sit down in a heap and cry - "why?" And it is always that question of "why(?)" that hangs me up and paralyzes me in the moment it occurs, only to discovery that 2 hours has gone by that I just gave in to that cry of "why?"

That's my petrified 4 year old little girl (inside me) who is finally coming out of the corner she found safety in 52 years ago. Last Thursday's session at Ralph's (my therapist) was the first time she got almost the entire 50 minutes to herself. She was barely audible (I'm not a "multiple" - Ralph simply introduced me to a form of hypnosis that I go into quite naturally now that we've built up trust week after week over the past 10 months).

Anyway, thanks for the "hi" back...I'm gonna go hit the recliner. I have a difficult body of pain and have been in the office chair a wee bit long. Hope to get back on here tomorrow or the next day. Cya! Zennah

 

[reallydown]

Hi Sasa, welcome to the forum. It is indeed a comfort to come here and see one is not alone in the suffering (and , likewise, that one is not in fact going crazy...most of us seem to have thought that at some point as well).

 

[Sasa]

Thank you all for the warm welcome! I was finally diagnosed with ptsd last fall, but have been diagnosed with other things like anxiety disorder and such. This new diagnosis makes sense to me and has allowed me to work out some of the issues related to early trauma like you Zennah, but also a gang rape in my teens and other traumatic events since as I am now 40. Finally dealing with these issues which have been shoved to the back of my mind for so long is a relief even if it is in itself quite stressful. REading about other people in the forum has made me realize I am indeed not alone and there are others who actually understand what I feel and do, and the frustration behind it, too.