Hi, you can call me Graygoose. I signed up to find some answers and hopefully figure out how I can fix myself.
I suppose I should explain a little about myself. In reality, my trauma's weren't extremely bad. When I was seven my mother was raped and stoned when we were on our way home. My dad was a severe alcoholic and we both have a minor case of Asperger's. 3 years later, as my mom was recovering from the brain damage she was diagnosed with cancer. We weren't terrible well off, but it wasn't too bad either. My mom had tried to kill me several times over this course of time. I also had no social outlets, which is why I believe my PTSD developed to the degree it has. It has been nearly 14 years since then and I am just barely being treated and diagnosed.
Every year, when it seems I am recovering, I relapse into my original state. This occurs on or around the beginning of September which is the time of the assault. I typically push away any help and feel that whatever position I'm in is because I deserved it. I've been cutting for several years. Many of the recent cases have been life threatening and I've been admitted into the hospital several times.
In terms of my social ability, I'm good at acting. I've made many acquaintances who would probably see me as a friend, but I honestly can't accept them. I'm basically a loner by choice.
I don't really know what else I should post here. Thanks for the future help.
Mods: Sorry, I used the link from the sign up to introduce myself, so I didn't read the rules. If you can, I guess an appropriate title to change it to could be, "Hello. Domestic Violence/Depression"
I suppose I should explain a little about myself. In reality, my trauma's weren't extremely bad. When I was seven my mother was raped and stoned when we were on our way home. My dad was a severe alcoholic and we both have a minor case of Asperger's. 3 years later, as my mom was recovering from the brain damage she was diagnosed with cancer. We weren't terrible well off, but it wasn't too bad either. My mom had tried to kill me several times over this course of time. I also had no social outlets, which is why I believe my PTSD developed to the degree it has. It has been nearly 14 years since then and I am just barely being treated and diagnosed.
Every year, when it seems I am recovering, I relapse into my original state. This occurs on or around the beginning of September which is the time of the assault. I typically push away any help and feel that whatever position I'm in is because I deserved it. I've been cutting for several years. Many of the recent cases have been life threatening and I've been admitted into the hospital several times.
In terms of my social ability, I'm good at acting. I've made many acquaintances who would probably see me as a friend, but I honestly can't accept them. I'm basically a loner by choice.
I don't really know what else I should post here. Thanks for the future help.
Mods: Sorry, I used the link from the sign up to introduce myself, so I didn't read the rules. If you can, I guess an appropriate title to change it to could be, "Hello. Domestic Violence/Depression"
