Hello!

[Isurvivedit]

Hi...
I too have just found you all - and again wonder how sharing here will effect my need to keep feeling safe? I found you by chance and feel it may be a place for me to explore why I am like I am and how I can make my life better!
I have been stalked, abused violently, held captive and he attempted to take my life on 4 occasions - I survived by developing skills I never knew existed - it was only 5 -6 years ago.
I am not afraid to look at myself inside and try to make sense of my feelings, I have been on a journey of survival, living secretly as he is now out of prison, I suffer from good old PTSD bigtime and am happy to have found you- for me to make explore and move through this.....

Thank you x

 

[Muzikluvr]

Hi Isurvivedit! :wave:

Love your username. :) Welcome to the forum!

Post when you feel able.

 

[Isurvivedit]

Thank you- I am just reading through some of the threads and am amazed at how amazing you all are - It seems we carry on with life as best we can finding a way through, I feel I have a secret place inside me that even I dare not go, it just upsets me to think someone could hurt me so badly & so deeply & so profoundly - it is something i will never make sense of....
I have kept working, creating really incredible things with my business and my life - I can't stop - for some reason I just have to keep going and going - luckily its positive, it amazes me what I have achieved but balancing the journey and hate that has been demonstrated to me is difficult.....

Maybe here you will help me explore these places and this life of mine .... and help me to find the pieces of the puzzle I'm missing

I'm sitting here with tears now- it's is hitting a nerve.... so it is something I probably need to do .... xx

 

[Lucycat]

Hi Isurvivedit and Welcome:)

I feel I have a secret place inside me that even I dare not go, it just upsets me to think someone could hurt me so badly & so deeply & so profoundly - it is something i will never make sense of....

I know what you mean. I am scared of some of the places in me. I have only just had it brought to my attention that I have a 'secret place' and I am scared as hell of investigating it. I will, when I am ready, but not yet.

Holding down a job when dealing with all this crap is incredibly hard. Well done. But do be kind to yourself. Take your time, take it gently

Regards
Lucy x

 

[Sqweak]

I am not afraid to look at myself inside and try to make sense of my feelings

Hi Isurvivedit!
I think you've stumbled on to a great place, and you're out look is so important to moving forward.
I hope you can really get something out of posting here, welcome to the forum. :hug:

 

[cherryblossom]

Hello Isurvivedit :wave:

Welcome to the forum :peekaboo:

There is great support here, from members who can understand what you have, and are going through.

 

[Isurvivedit]

Thank you Cherryblossom -

I can feel the support already and have started to put my journey on here - it may just take me forever but think it will be worth it.... to look outside of yourelf back in is often enlightening and am so glad this place will give me the opportunity to do so- its not just like documenting things, its real & emotional and you too are real - it changes the dynamic alot.

When its just me living with it it seems normal and that is so far from how it should be.

It will be interesting for me to even read what comes out! It will probably be worse than my brain has allowed me to absorb- we will see.

Thankyou

 

[Hlost]

Welcome Isurvivedit :)

Take your time and make yourself comfortable. I can relate to place you speak of, it's a heavy load to pack around.

HLost

 

[Nyx]

Welcome, Iurvivedit! Glad you did (survive it) and that you found us. Hope this forum helps you.

 

[leanne1321]

Hi Isurvivedit,

I'm so ashamed it's taken so long to welcome you... so welcome to the forum.

Leanne

 

[KAT]

:wave:

 

[Deaf Global Nomad]

Nice to meet you! My service dog, Bright, and I just recently came from the general PTSD forum. I hope you like it as much as we do. I am very glad that you survived your experiences, too. I have PTSD, too. So, Bright and I understand where you are at...

Take care!