Hello

[Barberian]

Welcome. :) Good advice and such said above so I won't repeat it.

 

[Sarg]

Hang tough, Dear Lady, rescue is on the way.

Sarg

 

[Squirt]

Thanks guys it really means a lot, is it really gay that this brought tears to my eyes when reading? Always prided myself on being a tough cookie, not anymore i guess. Got that 'hangover feeling' (nausea, dizzy, sweats) thinking about my appointment. Not fun when you haven't even had a drink. How do you start that first session? probably going to take half hour to start talking.

 

[medic5]

Squirt,I too was very nervous and wondering what in the world was I going to talk about during my first meeting. Wel, before I knew the 90 minutes was up. IF the counselor or therapist is good they will break the ice for you. Being a female in a man's world it was tough to admit that I was having problems. I didn't want the guys to think I was less of a soldier than they were. I was one of the first of women to actually get shot at and have to fight back (Sept-OCt 1983) and wanted to show I was just as tough as the guys. I did good in the service but once I got out after Desert Storm life started to unravel quickly. Too stubborn and too proud to admit I was having problems. It took hitting rock bottom and trying to go for a swim in the dead of winter in a river that it finally dawned that I couldn't handle it anymore and seeked help. The Beast is an equal opportunity pain in the neck. It hits all ranks, genders and all services.

The guys and gals on the site are great and will gladly help you in any way. Welcome aboard. Good place to be.

 

[tho9900]

ok my first visit, might not be like yours... most of it was like a job interview... they wanted to know my socioeconomic status, did I have a local support group.. how did I get on with my family etc... then there were a few questions like "what makes you sad" or "what tends to make you angry etc" don't know what country or region you come from but that was what I got...

After that was when it got more personal... what things did I remember about treating casualties did I remember most... did I ever feel in fear of my life (lol... ) it went on from there... now I am on like visit 8 and it is getting more up close and personal... they wanna know names... then ask me why I remember the names etc... specific instances of me freaking out on the inside etc... ya its been hard sometimes... but the first few visits were purely clinical it seemed... just a SOAP note per say.... and they are going slow enough for the most part its not too unbearable yet...

Can't say thats what you will go through but have the feeling it is.. they wanna make sure you have the support in place to go back down the yellow brick road so to speak before they lead you there...

Good luck!!! as always feel free to gripe, complain, ask questions whatever! If nothing else you have your brothers and sisters here!

Like I said in an earlier post to this... we aren't gonna let you go down easy...

and to the "gay" comment... if tears are what makes that, then you better start looking for me a dress lol... you don't know how many I have shed here.. and in the end it felt so good.. it's safe here...

 

[Anglesachse]

Welcome to the fold Squirt darlin`grad a pew and rest a while.

There is loads to learn on here.

 

[nomedic1]

Welcome squirt hope we can help

 

[Squirt]

Just a little update, trip to the docs went well and i have my first session wednesday. Things have got a bit better already. Managed to take my little boy out to the park the other day and spent an hour there with him, fair enough it was a week day so it was pretty empty (mine doesnt start school till sept) but still an improvement.

 

[Zipperhead]

I've found that as long as I'm not sitting still in the crowd, I do okay. At a park, head to the shady spot off to one side where no one is at. Sit and watch from a distance. It's not the crowd that bugs me, it's being in that crowd.

 

[JarHed]

Hey Squirt

A little late but Welcome. Glad you found the forums, great place and very homey.

Glad to hear you've been to see a councelor. You've already started on the road. It's a long one but you'll have lots of help along the way. Again, Welcome.

JarHed

 

[medic5]

Way to go Squirt in going to the park with your boy. That is a big step. Glad things are getting better for you.

 

[armyvetwolf]

Hi Squirt, Sorry i misconstrued your message about my kids last time. I am very defensive and protective of mine too. The thing that bothers me is who babysits them. It's been very difficult since i moved to El Paso, TX. I don't trust a lot of people here which means I don't get to do the things i want to do anymore. Date nights are a rarity and when i do get someone i trust, i am only gone for an hr or two. And i never feel safe either.