Help With Sleep

[desiderata310]

My sleep is very.. not really good right now.
I will get 3-4 hours nights then none.
I am only taking Trazodone temporarily to get me through and it's not really working. I say temporarily because last time I was on it for over a couple of weeks I became suicidal.

My therapist suggested that I go to the ER.
I am afraid they will lock me up because of suicidal ideation.
I'm having trouble making decisions. Really could use some help.

 

[Friday]

Did you get in touch with your T because you knew he'd tell you to do something you should do but need the moral support to do so... Or because you needed to be told things will be okay... Or because he knows you and will point you in the right direction?

 

[desiderata310]

I contacted him out of frustration and I suppose that I hoped to hear all would be ok. I don't think I actually thought he would have any suggestions. The ER is a terrifying alternative at this point.