Here It Goes With The "tough Love" Advice Again...

[FindingMyself88]

thank you @Lucycat . I am trying to trust my gut instincts more. Both my old and new T say I have good perception and just need to trust myself more. I say tough love because that is what my youth pastor called it back home. I don't think love destroys a person's confidence though…

I now know WHY I felt so horrible on Sunday. I went to my doctor and she said my neck muscles have locked/froze up again which is causing headaches and on top of that I have an intestinal virus which is why I can barely eat :(. We are going to try heat and water on my neck for a few weeks and if that doesn't work, I will probably start physical therapy on it since chiropractor didn't help. In 2 months it will be a year since my accident. Today she just put me on some pain medicine and nausea medicines and gave me a shot for the headache…now if only I could sleep...

 

[shimmerz]

That sick feeling is something that needs to be trusted. It is so important. You knew something was wrong and may not have been able to identify exactly what the feelings were @FindingMyself88 but you took some time - to stop from acting in a reactionary way and you followed through! Hurray for you! And I think you are right, love does not destroy a persons confidence; fear does.

 

[aka]

You know this headache is an attack of the enemy and he is trying to keep you from this stuff. You have missed a whole day of God filled things and the devil is loving it and you're letting him win! You're going to miss an amazing night of God. Jesus didn't complain when he died on the cross. We have authority over this headache and all these attacks.

This reminded me a lot of things people told me as a kid. Since my family was very active in the church and that is were a lot of emotional abuse happened I will admit this triggered me a bit when I first read it. My Grandmother has about the same views as this women she is so committed to going to church that she refused to come to my graduation because it was at the same time as church. She basically told me that going to church was more important then I was :cry:. Thanks to all my experiences I currently have a pretty negative view of religion at the moment. Wish it wasn't this way but I find it triggering.

 

[aka]

I just realized I was ranting before and forgot to say that I am sorry this happened to you @FindingMyself88. Glad others in the church are nicer to you. Hope you feel better.