Hi, I'm here if you want to talk about anything you like to share or it might take smth off your shoulders if that helps. I also had my sciatic nerve of my right leg stuck into hernia disc. I had to get a surgery, but it didn't take away the pain. I got off morphine myself because it wasn't helping at all, only got me addicted and didn't take pain away anymore. I still have tablets to take and vitamins everyday, and I only go to doctors or anything medical and I feel people judge when we are in this situation. I'm stuck into my trauma past, and I'm ashamed about my failures how I've let some people ruined my life in the past, how it affect me today. I can't do anything anymore in the future or present day. I feel already discouraged. Sometimes I dream of doing an activity or anything social, and then when it comes, I let it pass. And I stay home as much as I can. Alone. I dont have pets anymore because the pain when they go in heaven is such a horrible pain and sorrow, I can't think of it even if it would also be a good company. So I feel stuck in time not knowing where to go where it feels hopeless. If you've got anything to suggest about it I'm all ears also if you wanna talk to me. Have a good day