Perspective11
Bronze Member
It's been awhile since I was on here so I thought I would give a brief introduction and update.
I was in counseling. I went to all my one on one therapy sessions, with both my counselor and doctor.
I explained to them that getting help for my emotional issues (especially my PTSD) was more important and crucial than my past alcohol/drug issues. The counselors didn't listen at all.
I told counselors that I was triggered in the DBT groups that they tried to put me in twice. Certain words that they say during the beginning of the group are very triggering words for someone that has been sexually abused. They didn't listen and said I was just refusing to go to group.
My first counselor quit working there. The second counselor told me "I'm not meeting with you anymore because you are friends with your previous counselor" (this should not have mattered, that counselor quit working there). I was happy meeting with my 3rd counselor after awhile of venting regarding 2nd counselor... until she took me in a room with the new person that ran the place and told me that I couldn't meet with my doctor anymore.
I broke down crying. I told them I just wanted to meet with him for even 5 minutes a month just so I didn't feel abandoned once again (I've only been going to that counseling place from October to June). I know not to build "relationships with counselors/doctors" but my doctor was the ONLY stability that I had in my life at that moment. Since my 1st counselor left, they have tried everything possible to make it so I couldn't meet with him anymore. The lady started yelling at me (literally) so I just got up and left.
I called my doctor as I walked out of the building - he said he knew nothing about them making a decision about me not meeting with him anymore and he would contact me in a few days to talk to me about what he finds out.
I haven't been back there once. I told my counselor that I wanted my counseling closed there and to be transferred to a different counseling place. There is so much drama at that counseling place that I wish it was shut down. I hate saying that about counseling places, but its the most unethical and unprofessional counseling I've ever been to (not just me saying that either). I shouldn't be put in the middle of situations between counselors, ex counselors, staff, etc. there.
I was proactive into setting up an appointment and will be going on July 19th. This is the counseling place though that told my insurance that my "issues aren't severe enough" (actual paper saying that from my health insurance denying me counseling). This is the only place I can go to though... so if I'm denied again, I have no counseling.
I'm on disability for PTSD. I don't want to be. I'm trying to get the help that I need in order to get off of it and go back to work. But my issues aren't severe enough? How is PTSD, suicidal thoughts and attempts, self harm, drugs, alcohol, etc not severe enough issues?
I was in the hospital for suicide comments that I don't remember sending a friend last Thursday. I didn't feel suicidal. I tried to shoot myself 3 1/2 months ago. I black out (extremely bad dissociation) and don't realize what I'm doing until its too late.
I called the hospital today and am going to be going to a day treatment place that is for about 1 1/2 weeks for 7 hours a day.
I need the structure right now but don't want to be in a hospital continually. I'm doing this all on my own and its frustrating. I'm done with school until January - am supposed to take classes this fall but there was a paper that didn't get signed until 3 days later than it was supposed to that I didn't know about.
I was in counseling. I went to all my one on one therapy sessions, with both my counselor and doctor.
I explained to them that getting help for my emotional issues (especially my PTSD) was more important and crucial than my past alcohol/drug issues. The counselors didn't listen at all.
I told counselors that I was triggered in the DBT groups that they tried to put me in twice. Certain words that they say during the beginning of the group are very triggering words for someone that has been sexually abused. They didn't listen and said I was just refusing to go to group.
My first counselor quit working there. The second counselor told me "I'm not meeting with you anymore because you are friends with your previous counselor" (this should not have mattered, that counselor quit working there). I was happy meeting with my 3rd counselor after awhile of venting regarding 2nd counselor... until she took me in a room with the new person that ran the place and told me that I couldn't meet with my doctor anymore.
I broke down crying. I told them I just wanted to meet with him for even 5 minutes a month just so I didn't feel abandoned once again (I've only been going to that counseling place from October to June). I know not to build "relationships with counselors/doctors" but my doctor was the ONLY stability that I had in my life at that moment. Since my 1st counselor left, they have tried everything possible to make it so I couldn't meet with him anymore. The lady started yelling at me (literally) so I just got up and left.
I called my doctor as I walked out of the building - he said he knew nothing about them making a decision about me not meeting with him anymore and he would contact me in a few days to talk to me about what he finds out.
I haven't been back there once. I told my counselor that I wanted my counseling closed there and to be transferred to a different counseling place. There is so much drama at that counseling place that I wish it was shut down. I hate saying that about counseling places, but its the most unethical and unprofessional counseling I've ever been to (not just me saying that either). I shouldn't be put in the middle of situations between counselors, ex counselors, staff, etc. there.
I was proactive into setting up an appointment and will be going on July 19th. This is the counseling place though that told my insurance that my "issues aren't severe enough" (actual paper saying that from my health insurance denying me counseling). This is the only place I can go to though... so if I'm denied again, I have no counseling.
I'm on disability for PTSD. I don't want to be. I'm trying to get the help that I need in order to get off of it and go back to work. But my issues aren't severe enough? How is PTSD, suicidal thoughts and attempts, self harm, drugs, alcohol, etc not severe enough issues?
I was in the hospital for suicide comments that I don't remember sending a friend last Thursday. I didn't feel suicidal. I tried to shoot myself 3 1/2 months ago. I black out (extremely bad dissociation) and don't realize what I'm doing until its too late.
I called the hospital today and am going to be going to a day treatment place that is for about 1 1/2 weeks for 7 hours a day.
I need the structure right now but don't want to be in a hospital continually. I'm doing this all on my own and its frustrating. I'm done with school until January - am supposed to take classes this fall but there was a paper that didn't get signed until 3 days later than it was supposed to that I didn't know about.
