Dude, welcome, and yea, we're nutz like that....but totally worth it...ya know crazy people are the BEST lays around; there's nothing like a good 'ol mindscrew :sneaky: lol
Seriously though, I won't lie...depending on her trauma/s, it is VERY difficult to open up to someone that she's just met....3 months can seem like a LIFETIME to a person without this condition and can place a person with PTSD on pins and needles from lack of trust, and fear....trauma that is unresolved can be running "her" show, and by show I mean her life.....she loves you man, BELIEVE THAT; she's trying to work it out with you.... after all 3 months is real substantial when you consider the VERY strong urge to isolate, and run away from others when you have this condition....she's gonna have to learn to trust you, and know that you're on her side, and want to help provide her with a sense of security, and familiarity; she's suffering all alone inside of herself (possibly reliving the experience, which is NO damned fun AT ALL:tdown:) I'm sure she wants to rip out the pain and show it to you, but she can't....and that's what kills.....we want to let you others in, but what happened to us is often SO bizarre that it's unresolved...it can't be made sense of all at once, and sometimes is repressed, denied, (and in my case) Psychogenically Anesthetized (forgotten/blocked)....only to latter emerge, and be dissociated again....it's a SAVAGE cycle....
Dude I also have to say since it's only been 3 months....if she's been recently traumatized, the symptoms CAN worsen, or she may experience flashbacks that can exacerbate her suppressed symptoms....in ANY number of ways....she could become emotionally numb, display outbursts of anger (not at you necessarily but you need to know what you're getting into) just general mental, and emotional volatility man....just keep in mind these are all ways the mind tries to deal with the trauma, either be suppressing, or numbing the impact of it through emotional numbing, and dissociating any emotional responses to the trauma, only to have them re-emerge at a later date.
I'll say it again, SHE LOVES YOU....but she's in pain...all you can do is take it one day at a time....because with this disorder, the "Unknowns" are what can make things worse.....if you notice that she's "spaced out" or "dissociated" alot or very volatile, or sad, get her out of her head, hug her, kiss her, talk to her....basically help her "stay in the moment", and ask her before you do this; ask if she needs you to hold her, or if she needs time alone...dude I apologize, but this condition can really SUCK for everyone involved, and that's just the truth of it, but it doesn't mean that she's broken, can't be fixed/loved, or isn't worth it....I'm betting you decided that after the 1st month huh? lol
Good Luck Man, and Don't sweat it!
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