Hi...not Sure What To Do...

[Anna Banana]

I have one!!

I have a very large birthmark on my bottom :oops:. Remember those days in primary school when you did PE and dance classes in your vest and underpants? Well, my birthmark showed through, and I was teased mercilessly for having soiled myself. Which I hadn't but nobody believed me.

So, my birthmark has always said 'fragile' to me.:rolleyes:

Hey, kids can be so cruel, but a birthmark is good luck! I don't have one, but my nephew has one exactly in the same place and shape as his mother's...In America, we always had to buy dark blue bloomer shorts and a white sleeveless shirt for PE, so no underpants here...thank God. The showers were bad enough (we used to sponge off to get out of them). so take care and hang in there.:applause:

 

[leanne1321]

Are they really supposed to be lucky???

I've got 3, a huge one on my thigh, a tiny heart shaped one on my arm and one on my back!

And Lucy, my son has one on his bum too!

 

[Anna Banana]

Here's what I found out about birthmarks:

Some believe that café au lait spots result by a death in a previous life.
Many other beliefs surround birthmarks as well. Some cultures believe that birthmarks are lucky and should be touched. The Italian, Spanish, and Arabic words for birthmarks - voglie, antojos, and wiham, respectively - all mean "wishes." Others believe that they are signs of evil, that the child is "marked" by a demon. Some birthmarks may have special meanings depending on their shape. Some birthmarks appear in shapes similar to hearts, stars, or crosses and may signal good luck or even religious divinity. Some believe that birthmarks are "gifts" from other powers, which is evident by some of the names of certain marks such as "stork bites" and "angel kisses."

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[Jay]

Birthmarks are pretty cool in my book. I have one on my thigh, one on my right shoulder that looks like a 'stork bite' and another I won't mention. :whistle: Anyhoo, I was never cruel to another kid. One time I was kind of cruel and I felt so bad about it that I immediately apologized to him. We were best friends right up through high school. :cool: Kids can really be nasty, in fact school can be downright torture, but you know what. School comes to an end and lives go on. I try to live by that. :nerd:

 

[Howard Beal]

I am new here to so welcome aboard. I don't know what happened ( I don't need to know)
but if bad things happened to you as a kid yup u need to bee here. Easy enough for me to say so. As I am not seeking any thearpy. I just don't want anyone to know. But with that said, emotions just build inside and I just don't know what to do.

 

[Jay]

Well thank you for the welcome and welcome too. :) I just hope that eventually, when you are ready, you will be willing to speak up about what your dealing with and to find help and encouragement with us.

 

[Howard Beal]

@brucie "Embarrasment, along with shame and guilt are all packaged up with surviving. But they can get better as you work through it."
How can this be? Getting better? Is it even possible? I wouldn't even know what normal realy is. Oh don't get me wrong. I can act normal ( within society norms) but I don't feel it it's all a act. And I am beginning to fall apart I just don't know what to do.

 

[Jay]

How can this be? Getting better? Is it even possible? I wouldn't even know what normal realy is. Oh don't get me wrong. I can act normal ( within society norms) but I don't feel it it's all a act. And I am beginning to fall apart I just don't know what to do.

I understand your feeling on this one Howard. Of all things I know how to act and be completely normal, my mask, though within it seems as though I'm ripping apart. What you are going through is terrible and I can see by your posts that you are in pain. I just want to let you know that we are all here to listen and if you want to PM me, we can talk.

 

[Howard Beal]

Insominia again tonight folks ya!
Thank you Jay for the kind words I am trying go get used to the forum and it's layout so to speak. Can't sleep just too much going through my head and emotions. Bills and flashbacks what a combo. It is bad for me long story short. I kept all my emotions and experiences about my past at bay with liquor for years I even told myself I would drink myself to death. However that didn't work. With the meds I am on( heart pill, flexeral ect) and tramadol ;) anyhoo it comes to this all the time I spent drinking to stave off the feelings. I am only allowed 3 drinks a day this does not keep out the pain. Nothing really helps keep it
away now I really don't know what to do.

 

[Lucycat]

Howard,
I have been there. Many years of blotting out life with alcohol.
It is really tough to change your way of living and your way of thinking. I have had a crap week, but am now feeling better. I can see that it really is worth the effort.

Keep up the good work.. it really does get better!

 

[Howard Beal]

@brucie
Keep up the good work.. it really does get better

there are times when I think when will it get better

 

[Howard Beal]

^^^^ ignore above post^^^^^^
I just don't know when or how it will get better. I know I can't do it on my own. I refuse to talk about it to anybody. At time it builds up so bad inside and I there's no way to deal with it.