Longing_for_the_sea
New Here
Sometime last year I was diagnosed with PTSD she said it was of the complex nature. There was some therapy, but financially it couldn't last long. Often, it it very difficult to express myself verbally. It has created much strife in life over the years. As a very young child, I was wide-eyed and painfully quiet in most family photos. I have large blocks of time missing in my memories and was very much a wallflower most of my young life. Not sure anyone would have me, I married the first man who asked. He was abusive verbally and emotionally and took liberties of a very personal nature as well. We had five children together and he remained abusive to us all until he died... leaving us broken and lost. It was horrific, but my children and myself have become stable and now have lives that are 'happy' and more normal... but the scars remain and affect our lives still. I am 54, and still so broken in so many ways... not sure where to begin, but I need to learn how to better communicate for my dear and loving husband who is trying to help. That's about it... so hello and warm wishes to all of you.
