We can make a sport badge at work - it's voluntary. Since I like sports, I decided to take part. I passed it last year without any problems.
But there were some problems this year. The last trainer was too lazy to arrange the high jump pit. So I could only take three of four disciplines. I was often away after this because of my work and in autumn the trainers wrote an e-mail that I had to finish or I wouldn't pass. High jump wasn't an option anymore because they only do it outside and so they told me to do skip rope. I need to do double jumps (jump once but move the rope twice around you) and I never did much skip rope.
One trainer lent me her ropes, but I tried and tried and I just didn't make it. I went to the trainer to tell her that I give up but she insisted that there's no giving up.
I had to come to the gym and she gave me another rope and made me do some jumps. She told all the time that all people were doing skip rope when they were children. When I told her that I never did, she just continued talking about how every child just did that. And that even some really unathletic colleagues passed skip rope with the gold badge. I did two double jumps but I need twenty...
She told me to train and that I'm so sporty that I would make it. But as soon as I returned home and tried to jump, I didn't success at all. I sat on my floor and cried because I was so frustrated and all her talking about childhood and playing skip rope with other children triggered me badly. I tried all week to jump but I'm under so much pressure that I just hit myself with the rope or almost strangle me.
I also tried to jump today at my best friend's place - and again I cried. I don't do it because I want to...it's just because I didn't get the chance to do high jump. I want to give up but the trainer told me "There's no giving up". My best friend told me that it's okay if I can't do everything and that I shall give up before I torture myself even more with this.
I'm totally afraid of telling the trainer. She is sooo determined that everyone passes with the gold badge that I don't know how to explain her that I won't make it. I don't have the strength and the faith right now...there's so much other stuff more important than some voluntary badge, but still...I don't want to tell her too much, but I also have to make myself clear and I don't know how....:cry:
But there were some problems this year. The last trainer was too lazy to arrange the high jump pit. So I could only take three of four disciplines. I was often away after this because of my work and in autumn the trainers wrote an e-mail that I had to finish or I wouldn't pass. High jump wasn't an option anymore because they only do it outside and so they told me to do skip rope. I need to do double jumps (jump once but move the rope twice around you) and I never did much skip rope.
One trainer lent me her ropes, but I tried and tried and I just didn't make it. I went to the trainer to tell her that I give up but she insisted that there's no giving up.
I had to come to the gym and she gave me another rope and made me do some jumps. She told all the time that all people were doing skip rope when they were children. When I told her that I never did, she just continued talking about how every child just did that. And that even some really unathletic colleagues passed skip rope with the gold badge. I did two double jumps but I need twenty...
She told me to train and that I'm so sporty that I would make it. But as soon as I returned home and tried to jump, I didn't success at all. I sat on my floor and cried because I was so frustrated and all her talking about childhood and playing skip rope with other children triggered me badly. I tried all week to jump but I'm under so much pressure that I just hit myself with the rope or almost strangle me.
I also tried to jump today at my best friend's place - and again I cried. I don't do it because I want to...it's just because I didn't get the chance to do high jump. I want to give up but the trainer told me "There's no giving up". My best friend told me that it's okay if I can't do everything and that I shall give up before I torture myself even more with this.
I'm totally afraid of telling the trainer. She is sooo determined that everyone passes with the gold badge that I don't know how to explain her that I won't make it. I don't have the strength and the faith right now...there's so much other stuff more important than some voluntary badge, but still...I don't want to tell her too much, but I also have to make myself clear and I don't know how....:cry:
