Hope I'll be the last diary I'll ever write

[Givrali]

The food done me so much relief

 

[Givrali]

I'll try to put some decorations in my room today

 

[Givrali]

I may or not looking for placing decorations in my home but it didn't really happened today

 

[Givrali]

It was a very productive day I'm proud of myself

 

[Givrali]

I feel stupid to feel not being good enough because my symptoms aren't as bad as some other person. Not having as bad symptoms as someone else doesn't mean I have to prove I'm sick too.

 

[Givrali]

And I have to not listen to my brain when it says "you deserve to suffer more"
No I don't. It's not a competition and no one deserves to suffer

 

[Givrali]

I joined a only girl's lgbt whatsapp by a lgbt Facebook group.
It's hard fir me to talk in the group because I have no experience had hard life and is easily embarrassed by sex talk

 

[Givrali]

But i want to date someone soon. I want to spend time with some nice girl that would look at me as someone she could kiss and cuddle in the bed with not just a friend

 

[Givrali]

I'm trying very hard to be more than trauma in that girls group but l never tried to do that

 

[Givrali]

Also once I admitted I have a dark and complicated past I was easier to talk. I didn't mentioned anything just that my past is hard

 

[Givrali]

Tomorrow I'll see my therapist

 

[Givrali]

I saw my therapist and took a nap. With my therapist we mostly talk about how I was feeling about moving and she express her concerns about my inability to rest making me go in a exhaustion red zone all the time