Horrific Episode, 2 Er Visits

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Hi Everyone,

I'm posting this because I had a horrific day yesterday and am still feeling incredibly raw and upset.

Yesterday, for a number of reasons I don't feel like going into, I had an anxiety attack that lasted an entire day.

I threw up until I couldn't feel my hands and feet anymore and all that was left in me was stomach acid.

An ambulance took me to the ER, they gave me an IV and meds for nausea and anxiety, and then sent me on my way.

Less than two hours later, the attack came back, and once again I was vomiting and shaking uncontrollably. Another ambulance ride and ER visit later, I was discharged.

I'm still feeling extremely anxious and sad. A lot of awful memories came up for me and I've been under a lot of stress, which is what led to these incidents. I'm just feeling really sad and anguished, and honestly right now feel like life isn't worth living.

Needed to let that out. Thanks.

 

[KwanYingirl]

Wow. I can relate to you. I'm so sorry you had to go to the ER twice in one day. Did they have a psychiatrist or therapist examine/talk with you? Why did they just send you home? I hope you have a therapist to process this with you. Panic attacks are so terrifying. You say lots of memories are swirling around your mind. Did they trigger the attacks? This might end up being a breakthrough for you that results in closure and examination of those memories. Remember, it is not happening right now. It was a long time ago and you are safe now, as hard as that can be to accept. Once you share your story with a trusted person, those movies will lose their power. Too bad they just show up without warning.

I hope you can find some comfort today. Be gentle on yourself.

 

[Friday]

I bet the ER people felt sheepish for not giving you an anti-anxiety med the first go-round!

A newish boyfriend got freaked out by one of my panic attacks, and so over my protests hauled me into the ER. (Couldn't really fight him off as I was curled up in a ball with my abs spasming like an aerobics class on speed. So dude just picked me up & carried me. LeSigh.) First time I had Valium, though. So it wasn't a wasted trip. Turned into a pretty lucky thing. Other benzodiazepines make me pass out, Valium just brings me down to baseline & leaves me otherwise normal. He was the one who made the second trip to the ER. <grin> I got to stay home. As the docs had written a scrip, he'd just forgotten to fill it.

IVs & Compozine are miracles, though, when it comes to uncontrollable nausea & vomiting. I don't usually puke with panic/anxiety attacks, but I've had both with the flu. Heaven. Sent. Dehydration is seriously crazy making. Dehydration on top of a Panic Attack? No bueno.