Horrrrrrible Week

[Hashi]

I feel like almost everything that makes me anxious has come to visit me this week.

I had to do something for work that is my number one cause of anxiety. I had to arrange things around it to make me feel safer, which my colleagues didn't understand. Then I was even more anxious that they might interfere with the things I was putting in place around it, or ask me about them. And I was terrified that the "safety" arrangements would fall through.

Tomorrow I have a medical appointment, for my second biggest cause of anxiety.

Yesterday I had to see someone who's my third biggest cause of anxiety.

Therapy's really intense at the moment, this isn't helping my anxiety levels.

Today (Sunday) I slept most of the day. I'm just wiped out.

 

[Chondra]

That is one nasty week you are enduring Hashi. I hope tomorrow's appointment goes OK for you.

Your system has taken a whopping hit, and you still have tomorrow to go. I hope you have good self care strategies to help you manage and recover. It might take a while. Be gentle with yourself OK?

 

[^^FlyingSolo^^]

(((Hashi))) Really sorry to hear all this. It sucks when everything happens all at once.

Solo

 

[piratelady]

It always seems like if a week starts about badly it just goes downhill from there. I hope during this next week things start to look up for you. (Hugs)

 

[maelstrom]

Wow that sounds terrible! Could you maybe talk to your therapist and see if he or she could change the pace/intensity of therapy to help you ease some of that anxiety? Try to get some sleep and hang in there. Hope your appointment goes well tomorrow--good luck! Hugs.

 

[Bubba]

((((HUGS HASHI!)))))....and prayers that this next week will go better. Plan to do something nice for yourself - you definitely deserve it!

 

[maddog]

Some weeks just call for a day in bed... and I reckon this was one of them for you.

I hope that somewhere in the midst of all these anxiety-causing events, an anxiety-lowering event or reward can be found for you too.

Maddog

 

[Hashi]

Thank you all :inlove: . I was really in need of some sympathy, I'm so grateful to receive it from such good-hearted people.

I really don't want another week like that. My OCD/checking problem went off the scale as a result, and my journal's full of big, jagged writing and tear blots. I've been so tense my head hurts, my back hurts, my jaw hurts...

I did treat myself to some new art supplies, but I've been too stressed out to use them. Maybe I'll try tonight.

Thank you for understanding.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

(((Hashi))) I am late to this. I am glad you got yourself some new art supplies and mabe you will try them out tonight. I hope your appointment goes well, and I hope your therapy does slow down enough for you to catch your breathe. I'm wishing you the best. Be gentle on yourself and remember to breathe. Let us know how things went. Take care and be well, hugs.

 

[lil_fighter]

:) Hashi, I'm glad you treated yourself to art supplies, you deserve some 'me' time for yourself.

It's a new week and last week (thank God) is in the past. I hope that so far the week has been a good one and that your pains aren't so bad. If you have been more relaxed, I'm sure they will have improved as stress always makes it so much worse.

Therapy this week will hopefully not be quite so intense and I wish you all the best with that, you'll be just fine ;)

 

[Hashi]

Thank you, Gizmo and lil_fighter.

I'm feeling calmer and T yesterday was OK. Kind of a big debrief/vent. My T actually wanted me to talk about something in particular but I was just firing off, "This happened! Then this happened! Then that!" so she let me, then we spent the last 10 minutes talking about something soothing.

Still haven't managed any art yet, but I've been reading a good book (that's an achievement in my world) and The Apprentice is on telly tonight so the world's becoming a bit more bearable again. And I've been breathing, which is always a help!

It's helped to talk about it here, thank you again.

 

[lil_fighter]

I love The Apprentice :) a good tv programme or good book when you can enjoy them can be very therapeutic and are usually a pleasure to look forward to. It's the little things in life that make it that bit easier. Glad to hear you're feeling calmer and that things are looking up this week.