whiteraven
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I'm supposed to be on vacation. I planned for weeks cleaning, setting up appointments I'd been skipping for months, planning for my niece to come over, planning for a couple of day trips with my niece and mom.
And then, Friday afternoon, I started having severe flank pain. I've always pushed aside acute pain - "it'll get better; it's nothing" - and I did the same with this until pretty late, when I threw up. I called my mom, and she took me to the ER. Long story short, I had a sizable kidney stone and was septic. Like, seriously so. I had emergency surgery, had a very bad reaction to the anesthesia, and over the next three days was in bed with IV antibiotics running. No sleep those three days, very little food.
I got home today and now have massive diarrhea that is worse than everything I went through the last few days. I have to cancel all my plans and spend this "relaxing" vacation recovering.
I know there's nothing I can do about it, but it makes me sooo sad and upset that I spent so much time finally doing the things I haven't had the motivation to do for several months. And now...
And then, Friday afternoon, I started having severe flank pain. I've always pushed aside acute pain - "it'll get better; it's nothing" - and I did the same with this until pretty late, when I threw up. I called my mom, and she took me to the ER. Long story short, I had a sizable kidney stone and was septic. Like, seriously so. I had emergency surgery, had a very bad reaction to the anesthesia, and over the next three days was in bed with IV antibiotics running. No sleep those three days, very little food.
I got home today and now have massive diarrhea that is worse than everything I went through the last few days. I have to cancel all my plans and spend this "relaxing" vacation recovering.
I know there's nothing I can do about it, but it makes me sooo sad and upset that I spent so much time finally doing the things I haven't had the motivation to do for several months. And now...