How Am I Suppose To Discuss These Issues If This Is The Response I Get?

[Srain]

Unfortunately I plunged into another "episode" from this experience. This woman was a more of trigger than a stessor and all my reserves didn't seem to help me pull out of the tailspin I went into.

I'm okay now but not without the strong support of my team. My Son and friends checking in on me sometimes up to 3-6 times a day, my husband working nonstop with getting doctors and pharmacy changed due to this dr who has over-reacted during my appointment and left me spinning emotionally.

For a week I struggled with deep depression alternating with suicidal thoughts and paranoia coupled with rage. I could not leave my room and yet was insisting I needed to leave the state, only hesitating due to the storm that was heading our way.

What amazes me is that I felt so sure the whole thing was my fault even though I knew I hadn't done anything wrong. I'd been with the same pharmacy for years, I'd been transparent with my pdoc regarding all medications from the start as well as with my previous pdocs, and yet from all it took was the going through a similar experience to trigger set me off into a complete spin out.

I'm disappointed in myself :cry:

 

[The Albatross]

It's okay to feel some disappointment... and to examine it. But Rain, you and your family took the right actions and got you through it. Perhaps it is good to focus on the fact that you have a strong support system for these times?

Glad you recognized that you hadn't done anything wrong. And glad you're back! :tup:

 

[rightkindofme]

It is very hard to hold on to knowing you are right. Sometimes I don't feel like there is any way that I could be right.

 

[JustBe]

((((Srain))))

 

[maddog]

Letting yourself down is a painful sobering experience, and one of the hardest parts of progress to reconcile. I agree with all that Albatross said. Now is a time to focus on the strength of your network, your ability to have insight into your own setback and pick up from it, and the importance of focusing on the realities of right and wrong, as distinct from the irrational feelings and doubts.

This was an amazingly needless and distressing incident, and I remain deeply sorry you had to endure it. May you have much restful stabilising time ahead close to safe supportive people who will help you to put this all in the past.

Maddog

 

[Pietro]

I know this is a dormant thread, but I am compelled to comment anyway. :)

I mean, how incredibly wrong is it for someone, already suffering from trauma and looking for help, to get terrorized by the person who's supposed to be providing the help? And, as others have indicated, this is not so uncommon. I've also had my share of "interesting" therapist encounters. Truly, one has to wonder how many of them get licensed to practice, and whether there needs to be some better interning processes.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I hope by now you have stabalized and are feeling better. Time for a new doc. You do not deserve to be treated this way. You make perfect sense to me and I understand you and believe clearly. Hugs.

 

[ms spock]

Truly, one has to wonder how many of them get licensed to practice, and whether there needs to be some better interning processes.

There does need to be and there needs to be an ongoing yearly review process as well.

 

[Jlso111187]

This is why I don't go to therapy. I had a therapist who was like that when I was a teenager and I stopped going and have not started again.

 

[Gloria]

We should start a thread for psycho therapist experiences. I had a therapist whose senile husband called me all the time and she never did anything about it. Then I was scared to death in Cardiac Intensive Care Unit with doctors telling me scarey things and my therapist's husband gave my cell number to what I assume was telemarketers service. I needed to talk to friends but got sales calls non-stop. I can go on and on about therapist. When I was in college, we used to laugh that all the students who were majoring in psycology were totally weird. That's why many got involved in therapy because they had a lot of issues.

I am so sorry for your bad experience as well as others. These type of experiences have stopped sufferers from trying to get to help and that's just not right.

Hugs,
Gloria

 

[Jlso111187]

Gloria, that is right its not fair how one bad apple ruins it for suffers. But I do not feel comfortable talking to them because of the guy I had as a teenager. He was rude, condensing, and out right out of place with the things he said to me. So that's why I stopped and have not gone back. I tried for years to deal with the ptsd on my own but finally gave in and went to my regular doctor to get put on medicine. I know this site is not supposed to be therapy but it helps me and I get better feed back from others here than I have any place else.

 

[ms spock]

Unfortunately it is not just one bad apple. There are a lot of substandard practitioners out there.