How Did You Sleep Last Night?

[StarChild]

Slept just 1 1/2 hours.Then "catapulted" by that horrible scream into hell of reality.Totalyy exhausted, sad, and unable to cope with this new day. Can't stop to cry since startled again during sleep by nightmares. afraid to lie down again, afraid of my own bed.

it's just dark and sad in my soul today. Just crying, but there's no relief... :cry:

 

[DMerish]

I used the gentle sounds of the ocean lapping upon the beach and drifted off to sleep smoothly. It was hot, so I opened all the windows - forgot the lawn sprinklers go on at 3am - :rolleyes:
Was up for an hour, but then slept until 8am. So, total sleep time 7.5 hours. Not too bad

 

[zaniara]

@SweetLullaby - So sorry to hear.. :( I hope this night was better! :hug:

I had problems getting my self in to bed, it got late. Still woke up early. Sigh. In the middle of a disgusting nightmare.. :( (I decided yesterday to take an atarax, since I knew it would be a bad night- but then I didn't..? I don't know why I do that..)

 

[stagnantera]

I haven't gone to sleep yet. 9am here. Have to work at 1. I realize that I am afraid of the dark and that's why I haven't slept until the sun rises. Now it's worse.

 

[DMerish]

Another night being lulled off to sleep by gentle ocean sounds (thank you YouTube). Slept 7 hours, soundly, but need 8 or 9 to catch up on all the hours lost . . . feeling a bit groggy this a.m.

 

[BlackbirdSinging]

I had another bad dream about an ex who was also an abuser. If I could stop dreaming about him I probably wouldn't be so anxious about going to sleep at night. Maybe. He's not the only ex who abused me. And he's definitely not the only person who traumatized me that I have nightmares about. I wish there was a way to get away from the nightmares. And I really hate the way the feeling I wake up with lingers throughout the day and triggers my anxiety.

 

[StarChild]

I burn myself quite a bit from cooking,

Yes, this happens "only" when I'm fighting with sleeplessness like I do now since many weeks.

I hope the scald is okay.

After cooling my hand several times for almost 20 minutes, there was no damage to the skin. I'm quite a pro in doing this. Have lots of experience with it. It makes me feel so very stupid and angry with myself. :tdown:Thank you rainy-daze. :hug:

I hope this night was better!

Well, not really.... Obviously I just have to go through it... Really don't know, what I could learn from that?:depressed::wtf::wacky:

Thank you, zaniara. It's good to be heard in times where I feel as if I'm somewhere in outer space. :confused:

 

[zaniara]

Thank you, zaniara. It's good to be heard in times where I feel as if I'm somwere in outer space. :confused:

So sorry you still suffer so much. Do you have some meds that can help you sleep more? (I use a non-addictive one called atarax, which is really harmless but helps a little. At least if I don't use it too often.) Warm hug to you, sweet soul.

 

[zaniara]

Oh well, I couldn't make my self take the meds last night either. (??) Not sure why. And I couldn't get my self to bed either; fell asleep 2.45 in the morning. (But was up downloading and erasing a bunch of poems I have had on a website for poets. It felt good to do that, since I know my ex have access to that site and my page there. And it's about time that he doesn't have any access at all to any parts of my private life.) But managed to sleep 6 hours or so at least, but I think I had some not so nice dreams. Sigh..

I wish there was a way to get away from the nightmares. And I really hate the way the feeling I wake up with lingers throughout the day and triggers my anxiety.

Sorry to hear, BlackbirdRising! :( I guess working your way through the traumas will help eventually. I know now other ways my self. Really hate the nightmares as well.. But my therapist says that they're the brains way of trying to "fix" what was "broken"..

 

[DMerish]

Not such a good night, last night. Yesterday was physically demanding. Aches and pain - tossed and turned all night.

 

[StarChild]

use a non-addictive one called atarax

I already checked Atarax with my physician, but it is contraindicated when there exist cardiac problems, like in my case a mitral valve insufficiency. Then Atarax can increase the symptoms such as tachycardia or arrhythmia. :(

Warm hug to you, sweet soul.

:x3: Oh girl, you're so very kind...I just don't know what to say..:x3: Gentle hugs back to you, my dear friend.:hug::hug:

 

[goingonhope]

I haven't slept. I'm still awake and I haven't even tried to. I've read lots and do hope I'm retaining some of it. I was anxious in even the thought of going to sleep, as sleep would've too greatly restricted time.