Poll How Do You Cry?

[Cindy]

T-light:

Sounds like the perfect job for you. You work independently, solo, and help the plants that you know so much about. I hope you can steer away from the public sales so you don't get any whiners. But you would be great at helping people like me choose the right plants for my yard knowing the right soils, lighting needs, and climates. Have you thought much about landscape design?

Cindy

 

[linasmom]

JustJane,

No worries, it isn't your fault!!! I think it's a really good poll.

Best,
Rachel

 

[TLight]

Yes, In fact I have a program for landscape archetects that i use to do my native plant restoration plans for mitigation required by the County, State, etc.

I'm going to a Working Women's Group from Meetup.com next Wednesday. Thought I'd bring that up there, garden design.
Thanks for the idea!

 

[Cindy]

another option

t-light;

you could also hook up with local garden clubs as maybe a speaker or offer your services to look at people's gardens and give them pointers or advice of plant locations that aren't doing so well.

 

[Cindy]

Well, go figure, I cried today

Well, things are getting stirred up, This is good - really. I think I've been turned off for the past 8 months. I was in a bad situation where I was in a constant triggering environment 8 hours a day, M-F in my once safe place, my classroom. It was beyond a nightmare. I can't even come to terms with it yet. In December I even stayed home for 8 days. I couldn't even leave my house. I felt so bad I couldn't go in to protect my students but it was that or the hospital and leaving them with him unguarded for atleast another 6 weeks. I'm still looking for my feet to put them on the ground. He was removed from my classroom on January 30th. My hypervigilence has reduced but is not manageable yet let alone everything else that goes with it. Whew - what a life.

 

[Deleted member 541]

I didn't vote, but will say this. When I allow myself to cry, it isn't a good thing. I usually can't stop and end up suicidal. I do let a few tears fall now and then, but catch myself quickly and stop. Otherwise it just gets out of hand and I end up a nut case.

 

[Cecilia]

I cry silently and hide behind a big smile. I've had many years of hiding feelings and actions.

 

[Nicolette]

Sometimes when I start to cry I try and stop myself as I'm scared that if I start I may never stop.

 

[2quilt]

I cry silently too, because if i made crying noises as a kid, the beating would continue until i stopped making noise.

 

[Lucky Laser]

If I am really, REALLY scared (maybe something like when I first latch onto a trigger) the tears just come out silently. I'm afraid that if I open my mouth, I will start screaming, and once I start screaming, its hard to stop.

If my husband catches on and talks to me gently and holds me, I start just crying uncontrollably, and sometimes it can get kind of loud.

The most embarrassing thing... once I was in one of those states and crying so hard that the neighbors (apartment building) called the cops because they thought my husband had hurt me! He came out of the shower to find a cop standing there with his gun drawn and when I followed I heard the cop yell at me to get out there and when I explained what had happened the cop didn't even seem to know what PTSD was! He asked if I could tell him about it or if it was too personal... and I had to repeat "PTSD" to him like three times so he could write it down. SOOOO VERYYYY EMBARRASSING. I was depressed about that for days. :(

 

[nightowl52]

The garden has been a very good place for me 2

 

[harrywgtn]

i can really blubber sometimes , for the last 2 weeks i can cry at the drop of the hat. Makes it very tricky at work.