How Do You Deal With Feelings?

[KP the nut]

I now take care of me. I take the time to "do" my hair, put on make up etc. etc. Every night before I goto bed I spray my sheets with body spray. It took awhile to get use to this but eventually I got into the routine of doing it. I like the way I look and feel when I put the effort into it.

I've bought a hair dye ( can't afford hairdresser prices this time) to cover the grey AND I'm scared to try it :eek:

 

[Heather]

I've bought a hair dye

Go for it Kath!:)

 

[KP the nut]

Go for it Kath!:)

OK, tomorrow, promise ish. If I end up orange or green it will be your fault.

 

[Heather]

If I end up orange or green it will be your fault.

Oh kath if that happens upload a picture! :roflmao::roflmao::roflmao::p

I think you and your hair will be just FINE!

 

[Reclusive]

Thank you, you guys. I'm also a little afraid of what would happen if I DID get angry - and I know the longer it takes to get there the worse it's going to be.

And I dyed my hair green (never orange) for 10 years - rock it if it happens!

I need to figure out something to do for me that wouldn't make me feel stupid. Or is stupid just going to happen anyways and I have to learn to move past it? Why is this all so complicated?

 

[Nighthawk]

I decided on thing that would promote postive growth. Maybe you can plant a flower or do a puzzel or make a fire or build a lego something anything...

(((HUGS)))

 

[Reclusive]

My flowers all died and I'm scared of planting more. My rosemary even died - ROSEMARY.

I'm trying to get back into photography but it's a struggle. I had one of those nights where I don't want to sleep because morning will come if I do and now my schedule is all backwards - going to sleep at 7am and waking at 5pm. Things are just so mixed up and backwards, I'm so very frustrated. Even slept through an appt with the T today (not my appt, but my fiance's) and now I'm convinced our T is probably pissed at us.

 

[Nighthawk]

Believe it not I kill plants like rosemary and aloe you know why? In my opinion I don't neglect them enough. I was unaware a person could kill aloe but I have done it several times:eek:.

Please know you are not alone....... We are hear together

NH

 

[Sethe]

How did you learn to feel angry? All I can manage is melting into goo and crying.

I wish I could tell you too. I also don't know how it happened. Well, I started 12 step groups and got some good therapy. My rage/anger has slowly emerged. It's taken a lot of time.

And if melting into goo and crying is what you can manage, then maybe it's what you need to do now. When you're ready to reach into other emotions, then you'll know.

 

[Ted Moen]

Anger turned inward is depression. You still have your anger, you're just turning it on yourself. I used to do that. One time I was sitting on the edge of the bathtub cutting one wrist, watching the blood going down the drain when I suddenly got mad at THEM and the feeling it should be their blood going down the drain and thinking THEY not only used me and discarded me but made me somehow blame it all on myself, made me think of myself as a defective person. Perception, especially self-perception gets all screwed up when you turn the anger inward.

Talk with your T

You're a good person Reclusive.

Ted

 

[Reclusive]

OMG, I've killed aloe too I don't even know how many times. Before the PTSD, I had the most beautiful garden.... Le sigh.....

Thank you Sethe and Ted. I guess that's a stage that I need to graduate to. It's funny because in conversation I'll say I'm mad at something, but really I'm hurt and disappointed or guilty feeling. It's like they've taken over for being mad in some ways or something.

 

[Nighthawk]

I think my feelings turn into anger and confusion and push triggers all on there own. I need to learn how to find other emotions.

NH