Kas,
Per your original question...I don't think you would be here if you had given up. Just being here is a step in the right direction. I think you have shown a great deal of tenacity calling these people again and again. Good job. You don't sound like a person who is going to give up. You sound like someone who is going to seek new avenues for healing. I love prime-no's advice, and I am frustrated for you, that such a basic thing would be so difficult to obtain.
How about a member of the clergy? Could you take that avenue temporarily or look to them to guide you to help?
Per your original question...I don't think you would be here if you had given up. Just being here is a step in the right direction. I think you have shown a great deal of tenacity calling these people again and again. Good job. You don't sound like a person who is going to give up. You sound like someone who is going to seek new avenues for healing. I love prime-no's advice, and I am frustrated for you, that such a basic thing would be so difficult to obtain.
How about a member of the clergy? Could you take that avenue temporarily or look to them to guide you to help?