Relationship How Do You Stay When You Feel So Tired And Alone?

[Jawn]

I hear you, but you are at the beginning of the journey to his recovery. It will not be quick and easy. You just have to make sure you take care of yourself first, kids second, and hubby last! I say you before the kids 'cause it's like they say on the airplane, you need to put your mask on first so that you can stay alert enough to help the child. I think the analogy helps here. I can't stress enough how much getting my own T has helped me. I think part of my struggle the past couple of weeks is because I had my last visit with her and won't be able to go back. I have made an appointment for a new T next week, so hopefully this one will help me "perk up" again.

Hang in there sickofit,

Jawn

 

[hopelives]

So true Jawn. After 8yrs of all the therapies time effort money wasted it kind of hurts that we are still here in the same place all because no one diagnosised it sooner and accurately. But I need to not focus on that as it is not constructive. I am having a bit of a bad moment but I will be ok soon.

Ah yeah I will be getting my own therapist soon.

 

[hopelives]

Ok so I have face reality. My husband can not work and will not be able to for quiet some time if ever :(. I feel very down over this. But we are now applying to centrelink for a disability payment. Man I feel so distressed about this whole thing.

Centrelink were really lovely about things and didn't make me feel bad. Apparently my husband only has to go to his therapist and get the forms filled out. I dont even know if we will get accepted but we have to do something. We can't afford any more to be out of work and have no regular money.

Ah Im being selfish and totally I need to lose my pride over it. I feel sad about something that isn't that bad really.

 

[Jawn]

sickofit, it's perfectly understandable to feel like you do right now. Once you get the acceptance you will feel much better and can move forward again.

Jawn

 

[hopelives]

Well to throw a spanner in the works the therapist has turned around and said he thinks that my husband can work in the near future and that he doesn't want us to apply for the payment. I am a bit confused but just taking it one step at a time. mmmmmm I just dont know what to do really. This means that we can't apply for any payments as the therapist is not agreeing that this is the right thing. SO we continue to be without proper money. Ahwell I will have to just start to work through things. Back to the budget.

Ah a bit confused and frustrated.

 

[hopelives]

You are all probably sick of me ranting.lol

But here goes. I rang the doctors surgery and spoke to the director of the surgery and told her that I am not happy with his appointment yesterday. He went in to get a mental health plan written . The doctor was rude and left the door open as he asked private questions. The director was mordified and very appologetic and said that is simply not good enough. The doctor also asked my husband to come back today for the report. I said I wanted them aware of how much it took to get my husband there and I am angry. She was so lovely and said that they wouldn't inform my husband that I had rung and that she would discretely change doctors to a much more caring doctor and that my husbands file would be marked for the doctor that specialists in mental health issues.

I drove him there and he was ANGRY really mean to me and berated me in the car. Telling me to leave him alone. I left the car before him wiht the kids to give him a few moments before his appointment. He came out after the appointment really withdrawn.

Well I will see how things go

 

[hopelives]

Ok so my husband just told that me yelled at the doctor . :( I understood why he was frustrated but really that was out of line

God I hope that this therapist can make some head way QUICK.

 

[hopelives]

Going insane here. Seriously I love him but dont like him. Im so tired of the selfishness and the shit the therapist is stiring up it is really annoying me. I know it is good that he is feeling stuff and that this stuff has to come up but man he wants to be alone 24/7 and doesn't finish any conversation. It is like we have reverted 8yrs ago and gone back to the beginning. I know that the therapy is working BUT GOD I DONT WANT TO DO THIS. I am so amazingly tired of it.

 

[Jawn]

sickofit, hang in there as some of us can relate to what you are saying. Maybe it is time for you to take a break from things. Can you go stay with a friend/family for a few days? Just to give yourself a break and recharge a little. or maybe some exercise would help. I'm thinking of you kicking/hitting the crap out of a big old punching bag! LOL!

Jawn

 

[hopelives]

Ah I took some time this morning. Things feel worst today I think because I have 2 sick littles and have had very little sleep. I have joined the gym. My husband keeps checking on me. :) He made a joke before and said he loves me and keeps saying thanks. Ah how can you not love that.

Ah I just think I will take the rest of the day off and think on things seriously tomorrow.

 

[hopelives]

mmmmm punching bad might be a way to go.

 

[hopelives]

Feel like I am bashing my head against the wall sometimes. I am actually lauging at how STUPID this situation is.lol I mean I am unable to fatham why all carers do this to themselves. Oh thats right we are in love with them. I love him so much. He is my world. I hope that we can fix things and that my husband can change.