My little Buttons story
Years ago, in an attempt to help me with the agoraphobia aspect of my PTSD, my therapists (two separate ones) agreed together that getting a dog would perhaps "pull" me out of the house by having to walk it, shop for it, trips to the vets, etc. Fine...Ive always been a dog lover, had several growing up...sure...
so i find a beautiful AKC miniture pomeranian....tinest little thing ever...4.6 lbs at full grown weight..1.4 ounces when we bought him home at 8 weeks...no bigger than a cigarette pack ya know?? he had his playpen in the livingroom since he wasssss in fact too small to wander around the house at that time...his little baby front pack carrier that i would tote him around in..and i did in fact take him with me everywhere when i ultimately couldnt get out of it lol....he had all the little silly clothes and yes, even snow boots for the winters....lololol.......had soooo much love wrapped up in him to give it was unreal!!
well, it was wonderful having him, all the laughs and smiles he gave me, but yeah, their theory didnt work. I learned to work around the getting out of the house thing. Somehow i always managed to get someone else to cover things for me. (Inventive creatures when we have severe traumas,arent we all??) It wasnt a complete failed attempt to help me however lolol for the sunshine that lil dawggie bought into my life was invaulable and helped me threw some severe rough times. And altho the original desired results werent as fast coming i suppose as the therapists were hoping for, there was no getting around the fact that Buttons was most definetly a great addition to my "survival toolbox."
Well, now fast forward a few yrs later, and ultimately i did venture out with my lil buddy off and on, (much to my therapists delight lolol) and had some great walks...and altho lil Buttons did unfortunetly get attacked by a coyote while out for a potty break in our (5 ft fenced) yard, he sadly did not survive I cant help but remember how vaulable his friendship and love was too me..then and to this day.
RIP little Buttons....your pictures are still all over our house and we love you and still smile when we think about you. You will forever be missed.