How Have You Dealt With Persistent Hopelessness?

[Go Hungry]

From what I've seen, and lately had made very clear to me, Hope is a choice. So is Faith. I mean, I have neither of those anymore... but I just choose to actively battle to have Hope, and decide to choose Faith. It's very very difficult for me to hope or have faith in anything other than blood & dirt, personally. Every other thing was stripped of me over the years. If I had a true religion, I think it would likely be Nihilism.

But I don't want that anymore. I want to believe in something other than just myself, or the greed of man. And due to recent events (getting involved with the greatest girl in the world) I'm starting, very slowly, to have faith.. to believe in hope.

These things are choices. Sometimes easy, sometimes hideously difficult. But choices they remain.

 

[Tinyflame]

Yes me as well, no living parents but one sister.

I can't quite wrap my head around hope but I do think one needs (or it helps) to beleve in 'something' and find some purpose/ reason (s).

 

[Tinyflame]

Ps, I was thinking the other day, guilt re: one person, is not ideal, since it becomes like if/ when they go, then it's like I'm in some way 'waiting for them to go'. Which is not what I mean, but hope it makes sense.

Also ideally there should be a desire to 'stay'.

:hug: 's.

ETA, not sure why, but when I log out it shows 'shame/ guilt' ^^ , but I suppose that's ok too.

 

[TormentedSoul]

I feel that hopelessness all the time.
I had a career path outlined that I was passionate about. It was more like a lifestyle.

After my traumatic incident, I turned into a person that struggles to even go out of the house.

I don't have any education done nor have a job.

I just stay at home all day long. I feel like I lost the person who I used to be.

I used to be so upbeat and lived with a purpose. Now I'm just barely living a human life.

I don't even have a social life. No friends. I can't trust people. I just feel broken.