....And (don't know if you can double post) but I was thinking, also I think experiencing Death, and dealing with that for me was very traumatic. When I was little I lived with fear of people I loved dying, and then I suffered from what was at the time the only family that understood me (my animals) dying and not being able to get support there, stolen right from my arms, or just traumatic events surrounding the death or loss of my animals. And also the first loss of people who had serious impacts on my caretaking. Feeling abandoned, the death of my maternal grandparents, the fear of the paternal grandparents who took me in when I had no where else to go and was getting thrown out (again) but this time to a group home--of them dying, my babies/animals dying...loss, just, *thinks* Death. Overcoming fears of Death, afterlife, reconciling with that. I think those were traumatc events, and I still struggle with that, as in I can't sleep before Shamstalat, and I have to always sleep extremely lightly in case someone might need me, and I CAN'T leave angry without getting clingy because I live with the fear that we don't have enough time, and tomorrow the person I love may not be there, and our last memory would be an argument. And I work very hard not to use people and to let them know that I do care about them even if I don't show it very well. And I think these are results of losses, experiencing death first hand, and from a distance, and just... loss I guess, I don't know! I just thought I'd add that as traumatic events that for me don't necessarily revolve around just sexual, verbal, or physical abuse. Maybe that can be in the Phsycological category o_O.
