How to get yourself moving when dissociated

[Gs172003]

Wow! That question hit in the gut and sent me spinning. I never thought of toys. I never wanted toys. Because, I thought that if I wanted it, "god" would punish me. Damn! It was that hard engrained!

I think I was always a puzzle fantic though. I took apart things just to see how they worked. Those were sort of my way of playing. I would spend hours just figuring out how to take apart, and put back together, things. Everything I could hide anyway. I hid a flashlight in the closet just so I could sit in there and do that.

My books were encyclopedias. I was that sort of kid.

So, if I ever wanted a toy, it would have to have been puzzle type things. Something to challenge me.

Younger then 7 or 8 I'm not really sure. There are pictures of me playing with things but I think they were just for pictures.




Whew. This one is hitting pretty f*cking hard. And deep.

I never smiled until like year 2 of therapy. My therapist challenged me with stupid jokes. A "I bet you'll smile" comp. Jokes that are so stupid that you can't not laugh at the stupidity of it. I lost that one.

Do you remember "ad libs"? They were popular when I was a kid. Maybe you could try those.

 

[lostforgottensoul]

ad libs

Mad libs? Don't you need two people for that?

 

[Gs172003]

Mad libs? Don't you need two people for that?

I don't think so...

 

[Gs172003]

I don't think so...

Then again it's been eternity lol

 

[somerandomguy]

No way ... One person is enough.

Fill this in, by yourself:

Bob the (size) (name of a monster) decided to go to (city) to see the Statue of (abstract noun). So he got on the nearest (kind of transportation). "Hey!" (adverb) shouted a (adjective) (animal). "You just (verb) on me, you (adjective) (noun)!" Bob (adverb) apologized and told the (adjective) (same animal as before) that he was going to go see the Statue of (same abstract noun as before). "Well (funny swear word)!" said the (same animal as before). "This (same transport as before) doesn't go to (same city as before). We're headed for Cleveland!!"

 

[Deanna]

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Went through it when my first cat got sick and had to be put down about 2 yrs ago. Two goes and no more smell. Only thing I found that worked for cat urine smell. They all say they work but don't. That one does.

Expensive but worth every penny. It's why I even bothered to buy another. I stand behind that company!

Interesting. I've not heard of this product. I've cleaned heavy cat urine with Vinegar.. And The Lysol that is very concentrated. It worked, for getting the smell out.. Thanks for turning me on to the product.

 

[lostforgottensoul]

Bob the (size) (name of a monster) decided to go to (city) to see the Statue of (abstract noun). So he got on the nearest (kind of transportation). "Hey!" (adverb) shouted a (adjective) (animal). "You just (verb) on me, you (adjective) (noun)!" Bob (adverb) apologized and told the (adjective) (same animal as before) that he was going to go see the Statue of (same abstract noun as before). "Well (funny swear word)!" said the (same animal as before). "This (same transport as before) doesn't go to (same city as before). We're headed for Cleveland!!"

Ah, I see. Ok.

Bob the 12 foot Ogar decided to go to Atlanta to see the Statue of Liberty (which isn't in Atlanta or Cleveland). So he got on the nearest Donkey. "Hey!" Quietly shouted a pink kitten. "You just shit on me, you lazy ass! (Ass is an noun, right?)" Bob quietly apologized and told the stupid kitten that he was going to go see the Statue of Liberty (still not in Atlanta or Cleveland). "Well f*cking crazy cat lady!" said the kitten. "This Donkey doesn't go to Atlanta. We're headed for Cleveland!! (And won't see the Statue of Liberty)!

The end.

 

[Cypress]

If you don't clean the carpet in a certain number of days, will you be at risk of losing your housing?

Is this a must do or should do situation?

 

[lostforgottensoul]

If you don't clean the carpet in a certain number of days, will you be at risk of losing your housing?

No. They said they would work with me but it was so long ago and if something like the AC goes out again (which has gone out and leaked several times). Or if the upstairs one leaks again (which leaks into my AC closet and also has happened many times), I will be forced to call them and that smell would be bad (if the my AC is out).

I'd rather have it done then not done. Maybe able to push to do it today except my back is really bad today on the left so not real sure. Trying to stretch it out for a few hours.

Is this a must do or should do situation

A must. But its not like they threatened do it or you'll be kicked out. The letter never said they'd kick me out. But, they can and they almost kicked me out once because of what my dad did (abandoned the lease so I was forced to renew right then and didn't qualify for the increased rent amount). They worked with me then too. But, I was being kicked out and was indeed almost homeless at that point. So panic is high now that they know about it.

 

[lostforgottensoul]

Well, I did it. I woke up not disocciated, my protective part in the foreground and panicked about being kicked out so that allowed me to force myself.

I didn't sit down once because I knew if I did, I'd be done for. Not the best way but at least its done. And at least I can tell my apartment complex that I deep cleaned the carpet not once but twice.

Hopefully the smell will lessen some now. The first time you do it thw smell gets worse but it did lessen over time. But, hopefully this time it will lessen even more. Used the 1/4 gallon and then half of the other. At least its done!

 

[Skywatcher]

My therapist spent an entire session on how to access my adult part when needed, at will. Basically, she had me think of a time at work where I was absolutely fully adult me. She had me show her how I sit and continued talking with me and before long I fully slipped into me. I could even tell that my conversation with her had changed, I was more assertive and relaxed. I didn’t feel any fear, either. It really made me feel much more functional. I am mostly like that at work all the time unless I get called into a person of authority’s office. I found that channeling the adult was very helpful at the grocery store and when I travel alone. When I’m badly disassociated like last week, the only way I snap out of it is by hanging out with people. Doing activities. It does take a lot of Will power, but once I get out there it lessons my time in misery.

 

[lostforgottensoul]

Huh, @Skywatcher! I'm gonna have to talk to my therapist about that. Being able to control when the adult me is present would be super f*cking awesome and handy!