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How I Describe Myself Over the Last Couple of Years: Today is the last day of 2021! I've been thinking back on the fear and limitations that 2020 and 2021 have presented in addition to the active trauma I had to deal with from 2017-2020. Everything seemed tentative at the time....nothing was fixed and I had little to count on. I can see that I've made a lot more progress in 2021, in cleaning up a number of trauma issues, successfully living independently with stress typically under control, and keeping stress and drama at bay with boundaries with friends and family. I've found a sense of boundaries and balance. This past year, I've started to take ownership of my residence (It had always been a place I'd probably leave-so I didn't treat it like a home) so I've decided to stay there-a huge decision for me and make it look more like a home I want to live in.
I'm feeling more grateful that things are turning out better than before, feeling more connected to other's who are healthy, more tolerant of other's imperfections, feeling much more gratitude for those who have been in my life and been accepting of me. In 2017-2020, my courage level for new anything was low and problem-solving skills strained, but now I have more courage to try new things, have been taking better care of myself regularly, feel more organized and am better able to organize and problem solve, am remember both short and long term much better, and have begun making plans for my future (not just next week....but for years to come). So I'm feeling grateful for my progress.....and that led me to ponder upon......what do I want to tackle next. What do I want to do differently in 2022?
Who do I want to be In 2022? I want to be a more social creature, better connected to others I care about, and make some new friends who have common interests. In therapy, I've decided to delve into dealing with making "just friends" with members of the opposite sex, and learn some nuances or communication skills that I lack (meaningful small talk? Is there such a thing?....to make interactions with others more comfortable. So, I've signed up to take a conversational Spanish class, two pottery classes, and put my name on the list at a church to take the classes to consider being a member, and will visit with distant cousins I know from childhood....but don't know much about them. I'm considering going back to work, even though I'm retired, which would give me a little more flexibility financially in doing the things I'd like to accomplish to the house I'm living in, -so that's a maybe......when I left teaching, I never planned ever to go back because it was a horrible bully situation. So that's what I want to do! Would like to hear other people's progress and who you plan to be in 2022?
I'm feeling more grateful that things are turning out better than before, feeling more connected to other's who are healthy, more tolerant of other's imperfections, feeling much more gratitude for those who have been in my life and been accepting of me. In 2017-2020, my courage level for new anything was low and problem-solving skills strained, but now I have more courage to try new things, have been taking better care of myself regularly, feel more organized and am better able to organize and problem solve, am remember both short and long term much better, and have begun making plans for my future (not just next week....but for years to come). So I'm feeling grateful for my progress.....and that led me to ponder upon......what do I want to tackle next. What do I want to do differently in 2022?
Who do I want to be In 2022? I want to be a more social creature, better connected to others I care about, and make some new friends who have common interests. In therapy, I've decided to delve into dealing with making "just friends" with members of the opposite sex, and learn some nuances or communication skills that I lack (meaningful small talk? Is there such a thing?....to make interactions with others more comfortable. So, I've signed up to take a conversational Spanish class, two pottery classes, and put my name on the list at a church to take the classes to consider being a member, and will visit with distant cousins I know from childhood....but don't know much about them. I'm considering going back to work, even though I'm retired, which would give me a little more flexibility financially in doing the things I'd like to accomplish to the house I'm living in, -so that's a maybe......when I left teaching, I never planned ever to go back because it was a horrible bully situation. So that's what I want to do! Would like to hear other people's progress and who you plan to be in 2022?