Sufferer Howdy, everyone. Need a place where I’m not as alone.

[zytroxide]

I go by "Asterisk" online, pretty much everywhere. I'm currently 25 (born in 2000), African-american, and I'm additionally openly gay. Currently living in Dallas-Fort Worth, USA.

A lifetime of turmoil regarding my culty upbringing and unstable home and the after-effects of living amidst all of that has affected me greatly. I'm not diagnosed yet, but I suspect I have Complex PTSD & Borderline Personality Disorder-every documented symptom of CPTSD is something I go through and have gone through since I was roughly a teenager. I'm pretty sure about my speculations. Notably, I'm also Schizoaffective (diagnosed) and very likely on the Autism spectrum (undiagnosed.)

I really hope to talk to other people who understand the day-to-day struggle of living with post-traumatic stress disorder, I really need a place like how this one seems to be in my life cause I feel so very alone oft when it comes to this aspect of my life. Thanks for reading.

 

[gorgonzola]

I hope you find what you need here, @zytroxide.

What's the outlook on getting some professional help for diagnoses and treatment, if I may be so bold as to ask?

 

[zytroxide]

i've talked to my therapist about psychologist referrals, for other stuff but i could absolutely factor CPTSD and/or possible BPD in there regarding stuff i'm trying to get like properly recognized. i'd rather get help for it all, but i can only afford so much (my job's like $12/hr which is Not Much in today's economy.) i still wanna push for it though, i'd ... rather prioritize keeping hold with stuff that will lead to my life uh. not ending early. to put it in a way

 

[Sideways]

Welcome to the forum - glad you found us

 

[PlainJane]

Welcome :)

 

[arfie]

hello zytroxide. welcome to the forum. sorry for what brings you here, but glad you are here.

i started my recovery from child sex trafficking in 1972, decades before any of the current dx'es were available. i didn't have allot of options outside of addressing individual symptoms more than labels. as i have watched the current treatments grow in popularity, i have often wondered if addressing symptoms is the way to go. just wondering while i work with what is available.

as valuable as the pros have been in my recovery, it is my peer support network which has proved to be my most reliable source of help. pros are full of great info, but they are like reference books which never leave the library. it be my therapy peers who have helped me translate all that high dollar psychobabble to useful data i can use outside the library.

i hope you find a bit of that peer support here. welcome aboard.

 

[Survivor3]

Hi @zytroxide , welcome to the site .

I have a history of complex trauma, depression and anxiety. Always up for a chat.

 

[PamelaS]

I go by "Asterisk" online, pretty much everywhere. I'm currently 25 (born in 2000), African-american, and I'm additionally openly gay. Currently living in Dallas-Fort Worth, USA.

A lifetime of turmoil regarding my culty upbringing and unstable home and the after-effects of living amidst all of that has affected me greatly. I'm not diagnosed yet, but I suspect I have Complex PTSD & Borderline Personality Disorder-every documented symptom of CPTSD is something I go through and have gone through since I was roughly a teenager. I'm pretty sure about my speculations. Notably, I'm also Schizoaffective (diagnosed) and very likely on the Autism spectrum (undiagnosed.)

I really hope to talk to other people who understand the day-to-day struggle of living with post-traumatic stress disorder, I really need a place like how this one seems to be in my life cause I feel so very alone oft when it comes to this aspect of my life. Thanks for reading.

Welcome Asterisk
You have found a very good place to fit in. Nearly all of my relationships are online with safe people who get it. You will fight safety, camaraderie, understanding, input about others experiences, and so much more. There is no need to ever feel alone again if you don’t mind your relationships to virtual. Wish you well as you find your place here.