How's Your Day Been? Each Day is Different, So Make Your Mark Daily

[Britt.f7]

Ended my day fighting with my son. He can be so cruel. You would think I am the worse mom ever by listening to him. I ended in tears. Which he didn't know because we were fighting by text. Not that he would care. He doesn't understand my illness. He thinks I'm just not trying to get better. Which I am. I hate fighting.

 

[Deleted member 30850]

Mostly ok though tired and a tad irritable. I had unpleasant dreams last night but that is par for the course. Kids + dog are trying my patience some.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I ran out of my anxiety meds for two days and it was really intense with the emotions and the verbal cruel abuse by my inner critic. it really blew up in my face it was so intense, but I got my prescription in the mail and now back on them and my day has been really good. A great forum friend was there for me today and redirected my distortions and faulty thinking and redirected me to a better way of looking at things.

I cut my errands into manageable sizes instead of doing a marathon of running errands like I usually do and was fine with that. I have my plans all ready for tomorrow and I have a psychiatrist appointment on Tuesday and will talk about what I experienced earlier in the day.

I ate very healthy today. Got some chores done and took a shower which made me feel so much better. It is going to be a very busy week for me so I am taking baby steps to accomplish all of the things I have yet to do. Feeling more competent to get things done.

 

[ms spock]

A man tried to kill his girlfriend with a hammer in to her skull. I remember really why I don't do so well in these flats, because they are a damn dangerous place to be. When he failed to kill her he went and smashed her car into little bits - there is glass everywhere, everywhere - even the garden. Then he got a knife but no one will talk about what happened then. Five people rang the police, they did not come because they are sick of dealing with the issues here. The police told one of the women that! I should write to the Minister for Police. I missed all this I was out - but more than half the people who live here are staying somewhere else because of everything that is going on here.

Anthony is right on his one page on Healing from PTSD, if you aren't living in a safe place it is really hard to heal from PTSD. I concur and I get now why I didn't manage here so well for so long.

Despite this - yes I am still living in my family home - figuratively, internally and externally - so that is not good - but despite this I did manage today pretty well. I had lots of emotions and it was overwhelming at times.

So my day was okay.

 

[Deleted member 30850]

A bit tired, not too bad thus far.

 

[Let It Be]

Realizing that a miracle happened one year ago today with my neighbor lady moving out-of-state.

I finally felt safe for the first time after living next door to her for a very long time. Things had gotten so bad that I had decided that I was going to move and had gone to see a real estate person. A few days later I learned that it was her that was going to move. It truly was a miracle when I heard that news.

I will just enjoy this freedom that took me awhile to get used to. When the new neighbors put up a privacy fence that helped too. What a year of new firsts it has been for me!

 

[Britt.f7]

I instigated taking a walk today with my husband and dogs. This is a positive move on my part. Usually I am not the one who instigates leaving the house.

 

[ms spock]

My day has been mindfulness, child pose, standing yoga, cleaning up, eating breakfast, planning my day, wondering how to manage the cognitive distortions around my study and being generally being proactive.

 

[Britt.f7]

I have a busy day today. First take the dog to the Vets. Next my therapy appointment and last, a pedicure!

 

[Deleted member 30850]

I am feeling a bit too stressed. :(

 

[The Albatross]

Mixed bag.... some good/effortless things.... some not good/a struggle. Working on bumping up the baseline again.

 

[Deleted member 30850]

Kind of shitty; did not sleep great, bad dreams, the usual BS.