Hypervigilance - Don't stand behind me darn it!

[Sweetleaf]

It makes me very uncomfortable to sit with my back to an open room.

I feel the same way, but I also feel uncomfortable not being near an exit, or having a clear way to get the f*ck out. It feels like a balance between not having people behind or around me, and not being blocked from an exit by people.

Now that I think about the needing-a-way-out thing, there are times I've needed a way out and not had one, so I guess it makes sense that I feel very uncomfortable without a clear way out.

It can be really hard finding a comfortable place sometimes lol

 

[shatter eyes]

I am comfortable sitting in the corner observing without my eyes. Weird as it may sound its like if i sat in the corner i can be myself. Observing without my eyes sounds like i have sonars implanted.

Just thinking of corner feels safe. Waiting rooms samething i prefer to sit where i can see the door, the reception, etc.

Walking on the street i learned to move aside since i am also slow.

People in the city move very close to me and sometimes i want to stand my ground...ready to fight. Not kool at all.

I am glad you found strength to expose yourself and reduce anxieties at gym. I stopped going to gym because of space invaders. I am there to condition and rehab myself not bulk up ripped. I get startled easy and the energy in the gym made it hard to focus and i did get hurt...never went back. Its very immature some would intentionally cause difficulties and find ways to harass then high five each other. Dude grow up. For me the PTSd i have learned can switch real quick from nervous little person scared mode to nuclear monster mode. I find it interesting that when i am not activated i am quite weak in strength. I avoid places with space invaders.

Thanks for sharing you exposure experience. It would be nice to have PTSd gym Perfect Training Space division.

...yup