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Hypervigilence and mountain biking don't mix

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Digz

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A couple of days ago I went for a mountain bike ride with my hubby and some friends. My hubby was riding behind me, hypervigilence kicked in, couldn't concentrate. Fell off, landed on my shoulder and broke it. At home now sore and a little depressed. Usually look on the bright side of things, but every now and then just get so f-word-ing fed up of trauma interfering. Seems extra worse when I'm forced to sit at home not doing anything. Alright, self-indulgent feeling bad for myself moment over.
 
LMFAO :roflmao:... I have so DONE that! Lost the moment, spooked, and CRASH! Aaaaaaargh. :facepalm:

So many times. Too many times. Enough times that gravity sports have become one of my best grounding techniques (pay attention, or the ground will reach up and smack you!), but that doesn’t mean I don’t get smacked. It just means I’m already running symptom hot if I’m using my nuclear skills (high risk high reward) to manage myself. But since that’s also just what I consider “fun”? :woot: I can be asymptomatic and still hurtling down mountainsides (on snow, me) and biff it. Either way? I’m pretty f*cked.

:shifty: Because then... to add insult to injury I always get suicidal as f*ck when I get injured, because my symptoms spike when my major Avenue for stress relief goes out the window for 6 weeks as I’m growing new bone / reweaving muscles. LeSigh. :banghead:

So I feel ya. Whether pushing hard to blow off steam, or just enjoying the hell out of the day... f*ck. I broke myself. Well the next 12 weeks are. going. to. be. awesome. :wtf: (6 weeks for bones, but twice that to pull my head out of my ass if I get stubborn about it, although easily 6 months if I’m depressed. I don’t do depression well. Stubbornness? Gold star. Depression? Brick wall bang head. So I count on 12 weeks, and try to stubborn up every chance I get.)

Hang in there.

And paper plates / plastic silverware are a life saver with only 1 good arm.
 
Sounds just like me! I'm usually mainly anxious, not depressed, but when I'm out with injury or illness like this and can't distract myself or let off steam as you say, depression creeps in. When I can go back to work and do some normal things I know I'll be better too. One thing is for sure, from now on hubby has to ride in front!
 
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