I Am So Confused.

[Uva]

I'm a 24 year old combat veteran. I thought I was over PTSD. I don't know what wrong with me somedays. I don't even know if this is PTSD or just mental problems. I thought I was pass all this. I get paranoid as hell out in public and around anyone, women, men, and children. I get bad stresss and anxiety. Sometimes when I plan on going to a store, I get there to the parking lots and i'm scared to make it in. Sometimes I go into panic and anciety that I just leave before my fealings get any worse. When someone pisses me off or just offends me in a small way. I end up exploding on them with yelling to the top of my lungs like a short fuse. I always try to tell myself "in one ear and out the other ear" so I don't hit other people's feelings. And when I do start yelling to the top of my lungs some very offensive things. I always feel horrible all the time. I guesss that's the reason why I don't have a lot of friends and can't get in a relationship. I would tlell you the most traumatic event of my life, but somedays I just can't handle the truth. I'm a male by the way. Please I want other peopl's opinions, suggestions and advice on whats wrong with me exactly And also any advice would be greatly appreciated on how to get over this phase in life.

 

[Uva]

And when I do yelll and explode some nights, sometimes other people are reminding me that i'm yelling and going krazy, before I even notice it. And that's what makes me feel bad, because when i'm in my right and relax mind I just wouldn't ever do these things or relally think I ever would. I just don't wnanna be like this anymore. help please.

 

[Celizi]

The best I can think of is that you need to get yourself outside counseling. Look through what Vet resources there are for people just out of combat. You are not alone.

I am not a vet, nor a counselor, but I can see when a person needs help. You do at this moment. This is nothing to be ashamed of. We do have other vets on the forum who are experiencing similar things. It is not that you aren't in your right mind. For now, that may be your right mind, but it doesn't have to remain that way.

I wish you the help and support you need.