I Can't Concentrate At All

[Deleted member 28403]

So, I'm supposed to be functioning and all, right. I'm supposed to be a good student...

And here I am completely unable to concentrate. I can't concentrate in class. I can't think. I can't do anything.

I am depressed, can't get myself to do anything. I feel like I'm going to fail in school completely.

I can't study. I am incapable of everything. I feel like a failure.

I don't know what to do.

I don't like being incapable of thinking, studying, so on... I really don't. I need to study. But I barely even go to school. Too much has been happening lately. I feel sick all the time. I feel like puking.

How do I function again?

 

[Friday]

How much of this is today, following a big fat trigger yesterday... And how much of it is an ongoing pattern?

 

[Deleted member 30956]

Virtual hugs, if you need them, Saelben. Hang in there... :hug:

 

[Deleted member 28403]

How much of this is today, following a big fat trigger yesterday... And how much of it is an ongoing...

Well, a got bit of it has been a cumulative thing thats happening... Getting worse over time. And every single thing just pushes me deeper into that, so the trigger will also have some effect that will last for a while. I feel shit about it.

Virtual hugs, if you need them, Saelben. Hang in there... :hug:

Thank you for the hugs :hug:

 

[Deleted member 30956]

I've gone through periods of these "breakdowns", too. I would not have been able to trudge through them, if I weren't in therapy at the same time. Are you seeing a therapist/trauma specialist?

 

[Deleted member 28403]

I have a psychiatrist that is also a qualified theraphist, but a couple sessions were cancelled as he is sick

So basically I've been in void for past 2 months...

 

[Born to Run]

I am really sorry for you. I hope your therapy will resume soon to give you the support you need. I can not think of any short term solutions to make you function. Anti-depressants maybe? Take care so much and hugs :hug:

 

[Deleted member 28403]

@Born to Run
I hope to get anti-depressants in about 10 days, which is quite long for me as I am now

 

[Born to Run]

Yes that is a long time and then they need the time to start working in addition. Two months without therapy really sucks. Could you maybe stay at home and just be ill, which is truth. Then you may feel less like failing, because you are simply not in the condition to accomplish anything and that is not your fault.

 

[Deleted member 28403]

I cannot, I have to go to school every day.

 

[Born to Run]

What if you had influenza or pneumonia, you have to go too?

 

[Deleted member 28403]

Well, generally my parents hardly let me stay at home, so yes...
They don't see psychical reasons as valid reasons.