I can't find the line...

[joeylittle]

I know the others didn't know any better, didn't know is a product of my disorder, but it still hurt.

If you look back on it, do you still feel certain they were ridiculing you? Or is it possible that was a distortion?

I'm glad you went back.

 

[EveHarrington]

If you look back on it, do you still feel certain they were ridiculing you? Or is it possible that...

"OMG I can't believe you don't know ANY movies that start with the letter E!"

Nope.

"You don't know ANY vampires other than Dracula? Buffy? Anne Rice? Twilight?!?!?"

Nope. Nope. Nope. NOPE! (Sorry I don't watch lame vampire crap.)

Yes, I still think it's a bit mean to make fun of someone who blanks out and can't think on the spot.

I refuse to excuse other people's bad behavior by saying it must be my fault because I have PTSD.

It was tag team behavior, two against one.

Let's just say I won't be playing games with them again.

 

[DharmaGirl]

That is rude. I blank out when I try to use chat. I can't keep up and it is too much going on for me. I'm ok with it though. I know those groups are hard. I used to have to get up at 0530 to do my morning chores and have them pick me up 1/2 hour away and drive an hour for a 2 hour class. It didn't last.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

On the one hand I know I can't run away, on the other hand subjecting myself to this doesn't do me any good as I can't focus in the group and don't get anything out of it anyway.

Personally I would have quit the group myself. I am wrestling with issues that trigger me right now and I made a very hard choice to choose me over others. It is still hard at times, but I know my limits and I am not ready to cope with these particular triggers yet.

I say good for you. I imagine that you are now feeling better.

I know, stupid.

Not stupid at all, actually very smart because it would have ended badly eventually for you and you would be feeling regret like I do now for not doing this a long time ago. You spared yourself some real suffering and you can still push yourself as you do work very hard on your recovery. My two cents Eve take it or leave it.