I Can't Reamember My Entire Life

[bobjohn]

I get so scared I can't for the life of me remember what has happened before the year 2014. I remember snippets, but nothing formal. I doubt my identity and I forget what my family and friends were look liked and acted like like. Every day it seems life has been one long dream that didn't really happen. I know I spend a huge part of my life the last two years just wandering around the house doing nothing while everyone seems to ignore me.

I saw my mother recently at a wedding and it brought the most odd feelings of deja vu to me even thought I talked to her only the day before. Just seeing her face brought back a memory of seeing her face and of not seeing her face. What is going on with me

 

[NoWhereKnowWhere]

It sounds like your dissociative, (just a thought don't quote me) I highly recommend seeing your doctor and therapist if you have one.

These feelings must be very scary. Do you know any grounding techniques? Thus could be very helpful for you.

 

[bobjohn]

It sounds like your dissociative, (just a thought don't quote me) I highly recommend seeing you...

No I don't know any grounding techniquies. i see a therapist every sunday for an hour but it's not enough

 

[NoWhereKnowWhere]

It might be a good idea to talk to your therapist about learning some grounding techniques and other coping skills.

You can also have a google and see if there's anything you feel able to practice on your own. One thing at a time, it's so easy to try to do a lot of things and become overwhelmed. What makes you feel better? Is it exercise or watching a funny TV programme? Maybe a bubble bath or prayer/ meditation? For now maybe it's best to do something nice for yourself something compassionate.

Give yourself the compassion you would give a friend if they came to you for help during such a difficult time. You deserve it.

Is your therapist a trauma therapist does she/he have experience with PTSD or trauma? If not fire her/him and get someone who knows about the things you've been through and has experience working with trauma. That may sound a bit harsh but this is your health were talking about would you hire a dentist to take your appendix out?