I Cried This Evening...

[FauxLiz]

I know for a lot of people that statement wouldn't mean a lot but I don't cry. I have been with my current T for 2 1/2 years and I have even started telling him more of the details related to my Traumas. But this evening I was at home doing the dishes and watching old movies on TV. I was watching Smokey and the Bandit and an old song came on and I just felt like something hit me and I started sobbing uncontrollably.

Here's the thing, I am terrified that this means something more than I can imagine. When ever I have thought of that movie in the past I have associated it with my Uncle, he drove a semi for a second income from his primary job. He was also my favorite Uncle for years. Now I am scared that when I was younger than I remember (have only a handful of memories prior to being a teenager) something happened that was worse than him feeding me alcohol at about 12 or paying my entrance fee to a wet T-shirt contest.

So my question is... should I look further in to this with my T or just sit with it and see if anything more comes up.

 

[Naoru]

Could mention what happened to T and allow him / her to advise you further.

The crying could have been a needed release, no more, no less.
But my thought is not to push too hard for memories.

 

[FauxLiz]

@Naoru thanks for the feedback.I probably will discuss with my T but not this week. I am taking a trip the end of the week with my son to see my daughter that I only get to see a couple of times a year and I don't want to risk being out of sorts for the trip with any new revelations.