I Didn't Know...

[macpayne]

I didn't know....
* that the neglect I suffered at home was not normal
* that the wall I put up saved my life
* that the constant trauma I experienced would later haunt me
* I could one day like myself
* that I didn't have to live with the severe anxiety anymore
* how much I would miss my mom after she died
* that I could change the cycle and be the best mom ever
* that one day I would be be diagnosed with PTSD
* that being diagnosed with PTSD would be such a relief
* that one day I would be better and live a somewhat "normal" life

 

[a3a2]

I didn't know how many times I would want to die, or how many times I would be glad I hadn't.
I didn't know that it was okay to protect myself, even if it hurt someone else's feelings.
I didn't know I could learn to laugh.
I didn't know the world wouldn't end if I got angry.
I didn't know that my emotions were not inferior to everyone else's.