I think that I had mostly sorted it out before I went. I told her that I had written a thread and that everyone on the ptsd site was telling me to go. She was smiling about that. I could tell that she had fully observed that I hadn’t written her all week. I also think she was relieved to know that it was because I had felt that she cared about me, which was scary or maybe she was relieved that I had shown up. Who knows. We didn’t work on trauma this week, but I now feel better about jumping in next time I see her.