I Don't Feel Like A 'Real' PTSD Sufferer

[Hemels]

Hi USMC-Grunt, :hello:

Welcome to the forum. No matter what your tramatic event was, whether it happened once or several times it still was tramatic for you. When I first joined this forum I had the same outlook as you. That My experiance wasn't as bad as others and maybe I was dumbing down what PTSD even was (even though I had gone through 8 years of domestic violence and sexual abuse) This forum learnt me to accept that everyone is different and my diagnosis of C-PTSD is just as valid as any one elses no matter what caused it.

We are all here to share our experiances and help each other through our bad times and praise each other on our up times. You like any other are welcome into the community and I hope you find the helpfulness and kindness I have found here to help you start your healing too.

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Hemmy xXx

 

[Grama-Herc]

Welcome to the forum.

I can tell you from experience, that I did not even feel like I deserved to be here, in the forum, much less be diagnosed with ptsd.

I will never forget one of the first things ever posted to me by a forum member here. It was a very simple statement that says it all and shows that you have the right to be here.

Pain and is pain, trauma is trauma. The one thing we all have in common is ptsd and it is why we are here---not how we got here.

I hope the forum can help you as much as I has helped me.

 

[anni]

Xenu,

For some reason your post gave me tears in my eyes. It was so brief but had so much concentrated pain in it that I was triggered. You'll see by being here that being triggered in this safe place is generally a GOOD thing. One just plain lives through it and we're all still here.

Sexual abuse IS violence. Maybe there are no broken bones or lacerations in your case but God it's violent. Gramma Herc said it very, very well. I hope very much you stay here, along with everyone else.

Phoenix, thank you for the post, and I so hope you're coming to terms with the acceptance that no, noone deserves PTSD but you more than deserve healing and peace because you were so violated. Isn't it annoying to feel one has to 'deserve ' this awful thing we'd give anything not to have? It seems such a common theme here, it's been spoken of before but probably can't be mentioned often enough! We're equal here, honest!

Take care, and hope some peace comes your way soon.

Anni

 

[Pam]

My C spent most of his life feeling that way. He returned from Vietnam after serving nearly 6 years aboard the USS Constellation. He received a head injury on the flight deck, witnessed several flight deck catastrophic injuries and deaths due to the launcher cable (heads, legs, and arms), and believes he sent a man to his death and heard him die, when a part of the ship caught on fire that C sent him into to repair. C put out the fire and had to remove his body since he was also a fireman. He believed exactly as you do for about 40 years. And he suffered emotionally that entire time. Thanks to the VA, he now understands and has more compassion for himself. The last 5 years have been much better. He is now 65. You have served your country in our time of need and have put yourself in harm's way in our stead. That in and of itself is enough to cause you to carry an emotional burden.

C has a Marine buddy who lost both legs in Vietnam. He tells him that just because his injury was on the outside of his body doesn't mean that C was not just as injured on the inside of his body.

 

[onebravegirl]

There is a huge variety of degrees in any illness. How each person suffers is unique. Your trauma is unique to you. The thing we have in common is usually the side effects. You may run into someone who has had very similar trauma as you but that isn't the point. There is a ton of help here for all stages of treatment. You cannot measure pain and NO one I have ever met on here carries a jar with a measuring spoon to see if theirs is fuller than anyone else's. RELAX and join in, enjoy all the great people on here who really do care and want to help.
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[USMC-Grunt]

Thanks for the replies.. I just got back from talking with a psychiatrist at the VA and she agrees that she doesnt think I have PTSD but we're going to have a few more visits to gain a better rapport with each other and present a better case to the doctor who did the psych eval for the departments.

This is why I feel guilty being looped in with people who really are suffering, that something real that plagues people can just be thrown out there by a doctor to cover their own butt, or at the least is so misunderstood that they would just mis-diagnose someone so blatantly.