I Don't Know What To Do Anymore

[izmo]

I feel like I'm the most useless sack of trash in the entire world, without exaggeration.

 

[Ryn]

I'm so sorry you are feeling so low. :(

Would you like to talk more about what you are going through? Can you think of anything that might help you?

 

[stilldancing]

You are not trash. You are a human being, unique, and beautiful. You have a special purpose on this earth, and it may be lost inside a huge cloud of dark, but you are not worthless.

 

[arfie]

I am sorry, izmo, but you cannot possibly be the most worthless sack of trash in the entire world. That is my job!

 

[franciemarnie]

Feelings are not facts. And in this case, oh boy are they not facts!!!

Don't believe the lies.

Ask yourself exactly why you are trash. What did you do. Then ask is it really honestly true that you are garbage. Is it really true that you are not valuable. Is it possible that someone else is the trash? Someone who maybe did something horrible to you once upon a time?

A lot of times we internalize the abuse and become our own abusers. It becomes so inherent, it feels True. But it's not. It's a lie.

 

[izmo]

I'm just useless and can't do anything right.

 

[Ryn]

You are not useless. You have so much value and worth.

Are you safe right now?

 

[City Slicker]

It sounds like you are feeling in a bad place right now. I wish I had something to say that would make it better. I don't know a lot of people here yet and I don't know the struggles life has brought you but I see how you have reached out to others here with gentleness, compassion and support. I just wanted you to know that you are not alone.

 

[Tinyflame]

Yes @izmo you are not garbage.

Even if you made every mistake in the world (twice) you wouldn't be garbage. :hug:

 

[xena21]

I hear you, but I thought that was up to me to be the most useless out there. I guess there's a lot of us that are the most useless sacks of trash. Believe me, I feel like I should die rather than live with the guilt of how I'm living now. I used to be in the Marines and then in the Secret Service serving my country. Now I am sitting at home collecting a medical retirement on my ass. I sit here every day and hate myself for it. I want to die every day. So you are not alone believe me. I hope you feel better soon.

 

[seedling]

Thinking of you, hope this passes for you and you feel better.
Your worth as a person is never tied to doing things "right."

 

[cherryblossom]

I just need to say, to all of you here that think you are a 'useless sack of trash' ( that's @izmo ,@arfie @xena21 ), you're not, you are so not. You are here on a forum seeking help for something that happened to you that was afflicted on you by someone or something else. What has happened to you is not your fault. No one asks for PTSD. You are here, getting support, and learning all you can about a condition that is deeply affecting your life.

I won't just sit back and listen to people rubbish themselves. You have been through hell, and you are all (we are all) managing the best we can. I'm coping pretty badly at the moment, but despite that, I know it doesn't make me a useless sack of trash. It just means I'm human and I'm struggling. But I'm still here, as are you all, willing to learn and work hard to make my life better.

Life throws shit things at good people, but you will get through this. We all will, because even when no-one in real life 'gets' us, someone here will understand.

Just keep talking, keep reaching out for help and support.