• We are a multilingual website again. Read the notice about this.
  • Understand AI use at MyPTSD: all AI use is explained in our AI help page. AI use is by choice here. It exists if you want it, but does nothing unless you choose to use it.

I Have No Words For This Experience - My dad used to kill my pets in front of me in a violent way, implying I would be next.

Status
Not open for further replies.
@Lionheart my dude, i feel so much of what you do. Ive been coming to terms with a similar horrible incident where I came across a bunch of dead dogs that had been put down, all as part of some sick joke. And im going to be honest, im at a loss of how to even talk about it let alone even try to rationalozs and integrate this memory, give it space, understand it. I hate everything about it, i feel like its made me so uncomfortable around animals , especially dogs even years later. Its not f*cking fair.

To me, it was more rational to harm an animal than allow harm to come to a human being. This was always presented like a choice, but that was just another tool to cement the identity of perpetrator-abuser in me. For years I had a very human-supremist view of the world. Animals weren't as important as humans, no matter what. If I had to choose between an animal and a person I would pick the person.
This!! I think the term is anthropocentric. Its exactly how i feel. I dont want to hurt animals but my god i would never run into a burning building to save a dog, I might do it for a human though. To alot of people that would mean im a psychopath, to me its just common sense.
 
@Lionheart my dude, i feel so much of what you do. Ive been coming to terms with a similar horrible incident where I came across a bunch of dead dogs that had been put down, all as part of some sick joke.
I am so sorry @Nixx it sounds sadistic in my humble opinion. I mean who does these things?
And im going to be honest, im at a loss of how to even talk about it let alone even try to rationalozs and integrate this memory, give it space, understand it. I hate everything about it, i feel like its made me so uncomfortable around animals , especially dogs even years later. Its not f*cking fair.
Nothing fair about it, my friend. Nothing at all!!! Processing something so insane is bound to have repercussions on one's mind and I am so sorry that you've had such an experience.
 
Find some nice dog pictures for your computer.
I'm actually a cat person but I like dogs too. I appreciate your suggestion. My dad actually shot and killed my childhood pet...a female black lab and then, mom and dad lied to me about it. I found out many years later. Dad's reasoning...she was pregnant and he could not deal with a litter of pups.
 
Last edited:
Status
Not open for further replies.

Donation drives

2026 Donation Goal

Goal
$1,800.00
Earned
$910.00
This donation drive ends in
0 hours, 0 minutes, 0 seconds
  50.6%

Trending content

Featured content

Back
Top Bottom