I Have Ptsd & My Boyfriend No Longer Wants A Relationship

[jojolove]

You guys are so great. I really don't feel as lonely as I did. I'm happy that I have experienced people on here to hear my story and give me advise. It really helps. Thank you for not thinking I am crazy or stupid. It is very hard to let go, and very painful. I have been pretty selfish to see how much it hurts him to be honest with me. But what he says is how he feels. I can't be mad at him for that. I am just extremely hurt. I cry all the time, randomly whenever something reminds me of him. I still look at our photos together and listen to all his voicemails that I have saved. I can't sleep without him next to me. Its really hard to fall asleep alone when you have slept next to someone for a whole year. I haven't been eating because I am stressed, I don't even feel hungry.

Is it posible to live with him yet give him space? Is it better to treat him like a roommate than a bf for now? I know it is going to be easier said than done. But I am willing to try that route. The thing is, I really have no where to go. I don't speak to my parents because they were abusive my whole life. The reason why I have PTSD originally. My brother is in the service so he is always away. The rest of my extended family live in other countries or across the country. I can stay with friends temporarily but only days at a time. I do not have enough to move out on my own just yet.