I Have Ptsd Please Answer My Questions Its A Matter Of Life And Death..

[amethist]

Not necessarily Jonny, it is different for everyone.

As has already been suggested, spend time reading the articles and looking for a therapist. PTSD is not something to be managed by yourself, professional help is a must, then you go on to use the tools and information given, to be able to face, conquer your fears, and break down your own barriers.

Taking responsibility for how you recover and move forward. It is the only way you can over come all your struggle with right now.

Amethist

 

[Gcat]

You probably can only scream until you start coughing....or depending on where you're screaming someone hears and calls the police. I've tried screaming in my car with the windows up in city suburbs- usually at night. It's a good outlet for a little while- just have a plan to calm down afterwards. I once saw on TV a place where you could pay to hurl and break things that need to be broken like old TVs. Gave ppl some satisfaction. lol

 

[cherryblossom]

Screaming is just a vocal noise. If you choose to start screaming - you can equally choose to stop. Also you will quickly run out of breath and have to stop to take in more air. I can't see how a scream would induce a flashback, or make you go insane

 

[Matty]

Try screaming into a pillow. Let it all out. It is safe, a little quieter and should do you some good. Holding in your emotions without a safe way to let them out isn't healthy.

I've had many flashbacks and night terrors. The physical symptoms are just your body responding to those emotions. Sometimes none of it makes sense. Everyone is different. What you describe above looks to be a lot like extreme anxiety. I'd follow your docs advise on anxiety meds. If you haven't discussed anxiety meds yet I'd consider it. They have been a good tool for me during some of the tough times.

PTSD's triggers can be different for everyone. Crying in and of itself is not bad. No single emotion is bad. Being in a safe environment is good. Especially if you have folks around you that care for you.

The advise I received is that being around people is better than being alone. It provides emotional support, distraction, conversation and sometimes just quiet company. Sometimes though you do need to be alone. Just do it in moderation.

 

[Grace11]

I realize this is a bit odd, but I fully take advantage of sports-watching so I can scream. It's such an awesome release to "scream it out," and do it somewhere where you're allowed to/it's expected. I am an avid football fan for my college and NFL teams so I REALLY let it out last fall. I used to joke with people that I loved football because it gave me an excuse to scream really loud ("it's liberating") and drink beer. I was actually being honest about it....not sure that helps you in any way, but I actually feel kind of awesome after a good scream. Oh, rollercoasters, too----I used to ride those back in the day and let my scream loose.

 

[Abrasky]

So does this mean that the more numb/dead someone feels on the inside the more flashbacks they will have?/

I think I agree with amethist that is is probably a good idea for you to seek professional help. I'm not really to able to give it. I can give you my experience though. I find the more flashbacks I resolve the more I seem to be functioning again. But doing 15 years of resolving flashbacks, I am still resolving flashbacks, it is like shovelling snow. Because as soon as I resolve one flashback my brain gets strong enough to release a bit more, it reminds me of a very bad Suduko game wearing black from grieving all the time. It's no fun to shovel snow for it to get a whole heap of snow dumped on your head again in the form of a whole heap of new flashbacks. I keep doing it because my mother, who was abandoned by her mother to return to her partner when she was black and blue and pregnant with me and was in abusive relationships had a lot of hope. I've seen how hope can transform a life, and because of that I trust in it. Hope can lead to a lot of healing if you have something to put your hope into.
I do notice something with my flashbacks that seem curious though, they all seem to revolve around the same things, like my brain has picked out a whole filing system of things about abandonment, and having my personality being broken. It is a bit like I keep going past the same tree on my journey, but every time I pass this tree it looks a little bit different.