I have to work some things out

[Neverthesame]

Have you tried looking for ways to generate that positivity and sense of belonging for yourself?
There are enumerable volunteer organisations you can join. From serving food to the needy, sick kids programs, Salvation Army, peace corps, habitat for humanity, various community centre programs such as coaching a children's sports leagues, I could go on and on.

You would be able to get out and work with people who aren't in it for a paycheque. More than that, you had mentioned that people are unfriendly, vacuous and selfish (I don't disagree, there's alot of that going around). Here's your chance to fight back against these unpleasant societal norms. If you aren't seeing positivity where you are now, there's a good place to start finding it.

There is alot of good going on all around us, all the time. You just have to know where to look for it.

 

[Tinyflame]

Yes @Neverthesame , and maybe create it? Everything starts somewhere.

 

[Deleted member 44394]

I think one thing that's important is that I take medication. The other thing I think is important is to work on the edges, you know, of the things I can work on like my depression... little habits and things. I think that I have a depressive mindset. I know I do, and I developed it growing up as a teen; I most definitely got it from my father and I believe it's a negative way of thinking about the world. Both I and my brother and my father had it, there's this wonderful little book I got for 2.00 on the shelf the other day at a used bookstore. It's all about depression treatments, and there's a section in there about negative thinking, creative ideas and conceptualization for tackling depressive thoughts and depressive thinking, as well as cognitive therapy.
I really think that could help me, big time. If I can tackle it. What's really sad, and unfortunate is that my Mom remarried and she married a guy that I don't get along with really that well, at all. I was hoping for an awesome opportunity to bond and to maybe get some warm attachments and feelings, stuff I missed from my dad. But this guy's worse, he doesn't show affection at all...to me at least. is stern and cold; he doesn't really like me that much on top of it. It's really sad because these kinds of things would really have helped me to alleviate my depression, instead now it's just made worse. My Mom seems to be attracted to this type of man...I can't figure out.
Unfortunately, she doesn't give a care what it does to me and hardly seems to realize...or how my heart fell again and how I have to go through this all over again... with someone new. It was so depressing to realize when this happened.


It's just so depressing. It's even worse because I had to move back in with them for a while...and I have this cold reminder every time. It makes my heart sink and filled with such coldness. I don't know why my Mother has to do this to me again, despite how I told her how it affects me, she doesn't seem to care or to get it; she doesn't care at all...or realize how much my depression is influenced by factors.

 

[Gs172003]

I think one thing that's important is that I take medication. The other thing I think is important is to...

I'm sorry. That's rough.